Have you ever had depression?

[universetwisters]

Idk why but my temperament over the past month has been terrible and I’m slowly losing the will to live. I’m sure they’re related some way some how 

[Blue carpet]

I miss the days when I could enjoy video games I look at my old games and get really depressed because it brings back memories of a time where I was super passionate about them and still could get immersed into them. It's just not the same anymore and never will be to many bad things in my life has taken over where it's impossible to distract myself I would kill to go back in time.

[Naughtius Maximus]

@Blue carpet - Video games aside, I think I kinda feel the same thing about drawing and writing. I still find them enjoyable, maybe just as not as before. I long for the times when I could sit in front of my desk, draw and write for hours. Even though I have the enthusiasm, the burning desire is very dim. I believe this can be managed, if not completely reversed. What I mean by that is with chronic depression, even if you can learn to live with it, everything is not the same anymore. You somehow function but the passion isn't what it used to be. It's hard to explain: Sh*t happens, you feel down and maybe you rise back but you get older now - which means you have a change of mind and heart. Amongst stress and all the responsibilities, the "fun" things you do are more about "wasting time, keep your mind distracted" rather than pleasure, quality and self-improvement. It's a common ordeal but some people actively and consciously suffer more than others. I believe it's a natural outcome of a wild combination of apathy, depression and burnout syndrome in my case.

[ddarko12]

I think one of my biggest problems is honestly the lack of community. This videos describes it all pretty perfectly:

 

 

It's weird because, though I often do not like the word or categorization of introvert... I am the biggest introvert I know. But a reason I never liked the term is because for most people today introversion = being asocial, having anxiety, not liking people in general, etc. When really it's just someone who acts the same as an extrovert but prefers to be by themselves most of the time or who needs to recharge. I've had awkward years, mostly high school, where I dealt with all of that but that's not the case anymore. I'm genuinely interested in most people who don't present themselves to be an ass. I like public spaces and I don't mind crowds. I like going out, I prefer it actually, but yeah everything feels so closed off. And I feel like COVID worsened it. Everything is just every man for himself. There's no community, and it's hard to seek them out and if you do people are very uptight and gatekeep-y. Everything just feels so isolated and individualistic and just outright boring and I'm realizing it really bothers me. I know none of my neighbors, my parents barely know theirs and some of them are very standoffish. My extended family rarely calls unless it's about drama or something major happened. And everything now just boils down to having 0 time and needing and working for money. There's no real connections. There is no real end-goal.

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[DogButter of the Astral!]

I have yes. Still do in a way. I sit here listening to everyone's story and my heart goes out to you all.

[Blue carpet]

Depression makes me look forward to sleep I've notice over the years even though my dreams are really f#cked up but I love that feeling when I hit the bed and it's dark in my room with the fan on for white noise and my mind drifts away from thinking. But on the opposite side of that waking up is the worst from body aches to the depression flooding my brain I dread getting up and doing sh*t.

[Jessi22]

Unfortunately, I encounter depression quite often. I have a lot of problems with my family and at work. I constantly go to a psychologist, but my problem still does not go away. I take different pills and antidepressants. But they had the opposite effect and I felt terrible without them. Lately, I have started to study information about Kratom. Grab a OPMS Gold bargain here, I was advised to visit this site and choose the best medication for my problem. And how do you deal with depression?
 

Edited 2 hours ago by Jessi22

[Max Payne]

It’s been hitting me real hard lately. Haven’t had it this bad in a while. The pills effects feel as if they are decreasing everyday. I’ll see a different stupid doctor soon and see if anything changes.