Disabilities and diseases - Do you have one?

[Archangelsky 61]

I have had and still have history with depression and axiety, and I have had quite a few on and off periods in my life, its like life has stopped and "shut down" and in some cases we talk a few years.

I was always good in school but as I hit my late teens I started to fall out more and more socially, its like I could not keep it up anymore at the same level, and 5+ years ago I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome. It was not a total surprise for me since I have had people and proffesional healtcare workers either hint at it or say it more directly before, and I also have an education in the field of health, but currently I am on disability but I hope to find some part time paid work. I am high functioning and I have completed an education.

 

For me it was for the better and positive to get the diagnosis because it has given me a greater level of peace of mind, and also for my closest family I guess it is ok because I get a little bit more left "alone" now then before as in that they have a better understanding of why I am very very quiet and need quite a bit more time on my own compared to many other people around me. Not being employed is a tough one due to the feeling of not being useful and in order to make something of oneself and basically feeling that life somewhat passes me by and draining my potential.