Share Your Feelings

[kevin de santa]

Just go with your gut bro and as said above don't take life too seriously nothings worth stressing over when we all die in the end anyway

[Xavierr]

Eh, I decided I'll go to a nearby college just for the fall semester so I can save up some more for a 350z or Mustang.

 

 

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I just spent near $200 on myself. I feel really guilty about it, butt at the same time , I feel like that if I'm willing to spend that much money on myself, I must not hate myself as much as I think I do.

[The Harwood Bitcher]

Eh, I decided I'll go to a nearby college just for the fall semester so I can save up some more for a 350z or Mustang.

 

 

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I just spent near $200 on myself. I feel really guilty about it, butt at the same time , I feel like that if I'm willing to spend that much money on myself, I must not hate myself as much as I think I do.

Cut it out with the self pity

Im sure you have things to be grateful

A family, somebody who loves you,friends

If you have at least one of those upthere im sure you can go trough the day

You could be a lot worst....

 

Believe that

[The Harwood Bitcher]

I realized im a disgusting mess

I hate my job and i got 0 skills to find another one (also i am very unresponsable and undependable)

I never had a serious relationship in my life

I got no purpose in life

I got almost no money (im worried that the landlord will come and tell me to f*ck off ,ending homelless)

I miss my brother

I just hate finish working and go back to my house to find nobody that awaits me

And on top of that i have nothing better to do that bitch about my life in a internet forum dedicated to gta

I enlisted myself on the army but i did not know that they dont accept people with criminal records

I wanna hit the road and start over again in another place ( again)

But is just like myfavorite serbian says:

There are not such things as new beginnings

Other than that im amazed that my selfsteem is so high right now!!

Is true what the say,if you act selfconfident, you eventually gonna become secure

What im trying to say is:

Dont take nothing seriously

Treat the world as your toilet

f*ck every girl you can

Walk straight ALL the time

Put loyalty to his due

Treat your loved ones right

always do what you want

And take no sh*t from nobody

[GN 92]

feeling drunk already

[The Harwood Bitcher]

feeling drunk already

Lucky bastard

[gtamann123]

feeling drunk already

Good to see you're still alive

[Ziggy455]

I realized im a disgusting mess

I hate my job and i got 0 skills to find another one (also i am very unresponsable and undependable)

I never had a serious relationship in my life

I got no purpose in life

I got almost no money (im worried that the landlord will come and tell me to f*ck off ,ending homelless)

I miss my brother

I just hate finish working and go back to my house to find nobody that awaits me

And on top of that i have nothing better to do that bitch about my life in a internet forum dedicated to gta

I enlisted myself on the army but i did not know that they dont accept people with criminal records

I wanna hit the road and start over again in another place ( again)

But is just like myfavorite serbian says:

There are not such things as new beginnings

Other than that im amazed that my selfsteem is so high right now!!

Is true what the say,if you act selfconfident, you eventually gonna become secure

What im trying to say is:

Dont take nothing seriously

Treat the world as your toilet

f*ck every girl you can

Walk straight ALL the time

Put loyalty to his due

Treat your loved ones right

always do what you want

And take no sh*t from nobody

 

Something I discovered the other night, while contemplating shooting myself in the head, was a concept I just clicked with.

 

I am a very damaged individual. I half lost more people than anybody should. I've lost friends, I've held them in my hands as they've bled to death. I've lost family, more than once, again and again. I've been kicked to the curb more times than anyone. My family have kicked me out, my partners have kicked me out. sh*t, I've had it bad for a very long time. I've worked for horrible f*ckers, and I've done enough horrible sh*t to know that I'm not ever going to end up in a good place whenever I finally die. I don't know if there's a Hell or not, or a Heaven but I don't assume I'll go to either.

 

I've made U turns, I've f*cked up. I've let the world break me down many times and build me back up just to knock me down like a ten-pack of skittles. I've loved and lost, lost and loved. My life, although not as painful as many others, has been a very depressing one for me.

 

But what makes the difference is my willingness for difference. I remember sitting drunk a few days ago, back in that contemplative state, with Jack Daniels heavy on my breath. And then I realize there's some movie on TV. Any Given Sunday and weirdly enough, it was right to the bit where Al Pacino is giving his speech. He says that inches matter the most, and that clicked to me for some reason.

 

I've seen sh*t, you know that. But what makes me not kill myself is knowing that at least now, and every day from now, inch by inch, I'm going to be getting somewhere. I'll be who I want to be, and I'll do everything I can, so when I do add each day up, and each inch past each inch, I'll be so f*cking far from where I started that I won't be in the same country. All those negative things that didn't want me, ex-partners, ex-family, will have to work through their own paths inch by inch, because not giving a f*ck, and doing what you need to do, is all that is important.

 

Some of you want girlfriends, or you're lonely, or sick of your job, or sh*t, maybe you're just depressed. So am I. We're all in this together, and you can be sad and down like I've been, but as long as you count those inches a little further everyday, then be as sad as you want, but remember that your sadness comes from inside, because you're unhappy with who you are and what you want, and that's good. That means you know you deserve better than your current situation. Let that sadness make you realize that, get up, go out, run, do stupid sh*t, f*ck girls, and most of all, count each inch.

[IveGotNoValues]

 

I realized im a disgusting mess

I hate my job and i got 0 skills to find another one (also i am very unresponsable and undependable)

I never had a serious relationship in my life

I got no purpose in life

I got almost no money (im worried that the landlord will come and tell me to f*ck off ,ending homelless)

I miss my brother

I just hate finish working and go back to my house to find nobody that awaits me

And on top of that i have nothing better to do that bitch about my life in a internet forum dedicated to gta

I enlisted myself on the army but i did not know that they dont accept people with criminal records

I wanna hit the road and start over again in another place ( again)

But is just like myfavorite serbian says:

There are not such things as new beginnings

Other than that im amazed that my selfsteem is so high right now!!

Is true what the say,if you act selfconfident, you eventually gonna become secure

What im trying to say is:

Dont take nothing seriously

Treat the world as your toilet

f*ck every girl you can

Walk straight ALL the time

Put loyalty to his due

Treat your loved ones right

always do what you want

And take no sh*t from nobody

 

Something I discovered the other night, while contemplating shooting myself in the head, was a concept I just clicked with.

 

I am a very damaged individual. I half lost more people than anybody should. I've lost friends, I've held them in my hands as they've bled to death. I've lost family, more than once, again and again. I've been kicked to the curb more times than anyone. My family have kicked me out, my partners have kicked me out. sh*t, I've had it bad for a very long time. I've worked for horrible f*ckers, and I've done enough horrible sh*t to know that I'm not ever going to end up in a good place whenever I finally die. I don't know if there's a Hell or not, or a Heaven but I don't assume I'll go to either.

 

I've made U turns, I've f*cked up. I've let the world break me down many times and build me back up just to knock me down like a ten-pack of skittles. I've loved and lost, lost and loved. My life, although not as painful as many others, has been a very depressing one for me.

 

But what makes the difference is my willingness for difference. I remember sitting drunk a few days ago, back in that contemplative state, with Jack Daniels heavy on my breath. And then I realize there's some movie on TV. Any Given Sunday and weirdly enough, it was right to the bit where Al Pacino is giving his speech. He says that inches matter the most, and that clicked to me for some reason.

 

I've seen sh*t, you know that. But what makes me not kill myself is knowing that at least now, and every day from now, inch by inch, I'm going to be getting somewhere. I'll be who I want to be, and I'll do everything I can, so when I do add each day up, and each inch past each inch, I'll be so f*cking far from where I started that I won't be in the same country. All those negative things that didn't want me, ex-partners, ex-family, will have to work through their own paths inch by inch, because not giving a f*ck, and doing what you need to do, is all that is important.

 

Some of you want girlfriends, or you're lonely, or sick of your job, or sh*t, maybe you're just depressed. So am I. We're all in this together, and you can be sad and down like I've been, but as long as you count those inches a little further everyday, then be as sad as you want, but remember that your sadness comes from inside, because you're unhappy with who you are and what you want, and that's good. That means you know you deserve better than your current situation. Let that sadness make you realize that, get up, go out, run, do stupid sh*t, f*ck girls, and most of all, count each inch.

 

Wow, this post actually made my entire week. I feel all inspired and sh*t now. Everyone that feels down needs to see this. Thanks so much man

[The Harwood Bitcher]

 

 

I realized im a disgusting mess

I hate my job and i got 0 skills to find another one (also i am very unresponsable and undependable)

I never had a serious relationship in my life

I got no purpose in life

I got almost no money (im worried that the landlord will come and tell me to f*ck off ,ending homelless)

I miss my brother

I just hate finish working and go back to my house to find nobody that awaits me

And on top of that i have nothing better to do that bitch about my life in a internet forum dedicated to gta

I enlisted myself on the army but i did not know that they dont accept people with criminal records

I wanna hit the road and start over again in another place ( again)

But is just like myfavorite serbian says:

There are not such things as new beginnings

Other than that im amazed that my selfsteem is so high right now!!

Is true what the say,if you act selfconfident, you eventually gonna become secure

What im trying to say is:

Dont take nothing seriously

Treat the world as your toilet

f*ck every girl you can

Walk straight ALL the time

Put loyalty to his due

Treat your loved ones right

always do what you want

And take no sh*t from nobody

Something I discovered the other night, while contemplating shooting myself in the head, was a concept I just clicked with.

 

I am a very damaged individual. I half lost more people than anybody should. I've lost friends, I've held them in my hands as they've bled to death. I've lost family, more than once, again and again. I've been kicked to the curb more times than anyone. My family have kicked me out, my partners have kicked me out. sh*t, I've had it bad for a very long time. I've worked for horrible f*ckers, and I've done enough horrible sh*t to know that I'm not ever going to end up in a good place whenever I finally die. I don't know if there's a Hell or not, or a Heaven but I don't assume I'll go to either.

 

I've made U turns, I've f*cked up. I've let the world break me down many times and build me back up just to knock me down like a ten-pack of skittles. I've loved and lost, lost and loved. My life, although not as painful as many others, has been a very depressing one for me.

 

But what makes the difference is my willingness for difference. I remember sitting drunk a few days ago, back in that contemplative state, with Jack Daniels heavy on my breath. And then I realize there's some movie on TV. Any Given Sunday and weirdly enough, it was right to the bit where Al Pacino is giving his speech. He says that inches matter the most, and that clicked to me for some reason.

 

I've seen sh*t, you know that. But what makes me not kill myself is knowing that at least now, and every day from now, inch by inch, I'm going to be getting somewhere. I'll be who I want to be, and I'll do everything I can, so when I do add each day up, and each inch past each inch, I'll be so f*cking far from where I started that I won't be in the same country. All those negative things that didn't want me, ex-partners, ex-family, will have to work through their own paths inch by inch, because not giving a f*ck, and doing what you need to do, is all that is important.

 

Some of you want girlfriends, or you're lonely, or sick of your job, or sh*t, maybe you're just depressed. So am I. We're all in this together, and you can be sad and down like I've been, but as long as you count those inches a little further everyday, then be as sad as you want, but remember that your sadness comes from inside, because you're unhappy with who you are and what you want, and that's good. That means you know you deserve better than your current situation. Let that sadness make you realize that, get up, go out, run, do stupid sh*t, f*ck girls, and most of all, count each inch.

Count each inch...

Ok

 

 

 

Now im depressed

Im little

In all seriousness

It takes someone special to endure all of that sh*t

I have my share of sh*tty moments but you just have to keep going and make life your bitch

And when you take the last breath of that hag

You gonna become a wise and stronger person

Edited August 21, 2014 by The Harwood Bitcher

[dudclub55]

"You want something? Go get it. Period"
I forgot which movie this is from, but this is basically the my life's basis.

Looking back at the days of when I used to be seriously depressed.. I've realized just how trivial that sh*t was. I'm still young, I'm still shaping my life, I haven't f*cked up yet, and so far things are going great, what's there to be depressed about?

[Ziggy455]

"You want something? Go get it. Period"

I forgot which movie this is from, but this is basically the my life's basis.

Looking back at the days of when I used to be seriously depressed.. I've realized just how trivial that sh*t was. I'm still young, I'm still shaping my life, I haven't f*cked up yet, and so far things are going great, what's there to be depressed about?

 

The Pursuit of Happyness.

 

And yes. Depression is depression, and what annoys me is when people go 'just get over it!', No. If you're depressed, be depressed, but count each inch and get up and do whatever you can to push it back. You want to feel sh*t about being alone? Feel it, but don't emulate it. Go running, just move. Don't sit at the screen, just get up and run, and then look back and look at each inch, and see them as ways you're making that chance of asking that girl out, of getting that job, of getting through sh*t.

 

I've lost so much I pushed my loved ones away, and it sucks. But instead of always feeling down, I look at ways of getting further. You all can do it, even if you feel sh*t. Just turn that pain into something else. You're lonely? Go outside and stay out there til' you have at least three conversations with a random person. They're cold towards you? f*ck them! You're not the problem, they are! You're talking--involving yourself in conversation towards another living person. Eventually you'll become so adept at dealing with the cold facade of people that you'll learn to battle it, and then you'll make strangers laugh, and then you can f*ck them, or date them.

 

You going through a rough breakup? f*ck them. They may think they're better off without you now, but if you've got those inches going up and up, eventually they're gonna see how they add up, and even if they don't show it, or don't acknowledge it, they know they've made a mistake.

 

If you're miserable with your job, keep doing it! Do it as filler while you look for other jobs. You don't have the qualifications? Send letters out, beg for a chance. You've never got less than one percent in the chance of success, so send out a hundred letters to anywhere, begging, and if you only get one letter back, that's one path more for you to get away from your sh*tty job.

 

You feel the pain more when you've got nothing to do. Coming on here, to this forum is a good thing. But turning to a PC screen when you begin to feel that dark despair of loneliness or sadness. Next time you feel it and want to come on to here and complain--DON'T.

 

Put on some shoes and go for a long run, sign up to a martial art, go to the gym and start lifting weights. Do anything that involves physical strain, because when you're out of breath and can't breath, you're not thinking about how lonely you are, or how sh*t things are. You're just thinking on how to get more air, and then the endorphins kick in.

[The Harwood Bitcher]

No ziggy

Just dont

Complain HERE all you want,dont bottle up inside

If you gonna complain,do it in a forum where nobody knows you

And DONT go run at this time,you will get mugged if you do that

[Xavierr]

I'm feeling happy and inspired.

 

Also feeling a little defeated for giving up on trying to find DMT. Too many sketchy websites 'claiming' they sell Mimosa Hostilis. The trip would probably be worth it, but looking for it and risking the chance of getting in trouble before I even get to experience the trip probably isn't worth it.

 

I also may officially be used to my female co-workers I find attractive. So no more getting infatuated and impatient with them. Just friendly.

I think it may be a lot easier to be friends with attractive girls if you don't expect much from them.

 

I don't hate my job anymore, the owner(s) really do pay me generously. I mean some of the people there still make me feel unpleasant and will probably continue to make me feel an unpleasant way, but I'm really just there for the money and I gotta remember that.

 

Also a little excited to start college, because of a certain girl, it amazingly really does only take a different girl to get over another girl.

[Flachbau]

Feeling better tonight. I should be getting a new phone this weekend so I'm pretty happy about that.

 

Literally the only thing I did to make myself feel better was to take a hot shower.

[gtamann123]

The world's completely gone to sh*t. Can the total collapse of society that leads to the destruction of the human race just start already? I'm getting bored waiting for it.

Edited August 21, 2014 by gtamann123

[IveGotNoValues]

Also a little excited to start college, because of a certain girl, it amazingly really does only take a different girl to get over another girl.

That's exactly what I need to do. I'm still trying to get over my ex girlfriend (although I'm way better off than I was a few months ago), and I just really need another girl to get the old one off my mind. Meeting girls isn't exactly an easy task, but there are some cute girls I've seen around school that might actually be approachable. I think it would be cool to talk to some new girls, but I'll admit I'm pretty terrified of getting into another relationship after the last one. I'll just take it nice and slow for now, but I know that if I did start talking to a new girl I would finally be free of the constant nagging thoughts of the old girl.

Edited August 21, 2014 by IveGotNoValues

[johnny_zoo]

I think I've finally snapped.

 

My hands are a lot more shakier than usual.

 

I don't want to talk to my therapist , and get institutionalized, because I have a job, and I may be able to back to My original college for this semester, and I'm well on my way to getting 'actual' first car - I've gotten such a far way from that I was tempted to light myself on fire.

 

 

But at the same time , I don't wanna end up burning my workplace ( even if most of the people I work with deserve it), and drowning my dog, and especially scaring my family, my little sister already have me strange looks when I tried to put my dog in the freezer earlier.

Wow. Keep that goal of a car in mind because it gives you something to work towards. Without any hope the people perish. It's important to have a goal. Make more goals too and pin them up on your wall so you don't forget.

 

I say talk to someone too to and let your emotions out. Never keep that in I learnt the hard way. You end up feeling worse and in my case you forget what it is that you feel.

[Gnocchi Flip Flops]

I'm never gonna get any peace and quiet am I? I'm so f*cking sick and tired of the people I live with. I wake up at 7:30AM nearly every day because I'm a morning person. But I also like to get 1 and a half to 2 hours of peace and quiet from everybody in the house. So my sister has work at 12AM today and at first I was fine with that, but for some f*cking reason she felt the need to wake up somewhere around 8:30AM. I don't usually mind when people wake up, I mean why should that be a problem. But she is so f*cking noisy, all she does is sniff and snort her brains out due to her allergies (although I have the same f*cking allergies yet I never do that because I have the common sense to know that it doesn't help) and then make a lot of noise in her room that is so disturbing to me in the gameroom only a few rooms away. I had plans to enjoy this morning in peace and quiet (well yeah the TV is on but what I mean is I wanted no extra annoying background noises) but no I guess I can't have that. And if the same sh*t happens tomorrow then I guess I'll never get that. Not until November when I get my first break from school I guess. This is the last week of summer and it's sh*t. I'm so sick and f*cking tired of everybody and their f*cking noise. I hate misophonia and it makes me wish that i was deaf sometimes.

[M22]

So my family took my pop to the hospital and right in the middle of my therapy session i get a phone call saying he is on his last legs with small cases of cancer in the ICU unit and when i arrived he had 17 doctors that couldn't even get his blood pressure for 2 hours , wow f*cking wow, honestly sometimes my life is just totally f*cked i don't know what to do...

[LightningLord]

I'm never gonna get any peace and quiet am I? I'm so f*cking sick and tired of the people I live with. I wake up at 7:30AM nearly every day because I'm a morning person. But I also like to get 1 and a half to 2 hours of peace and quiet from everybody in the house. So my sister has work at 12AM today and at first I was fine with that, but for some f*cking reason she felt the need to wake up somewhere around 8:30AM. I don't usually mind when people wake up, I mean why should that be a problem. But she is so f*cking noisy, all she does is sniff and snort her brains out due to her allergies (although I have the same f*cking allergies yet I never do that because I have the common sense to know that it doesn't help) and then make a lot of noise in her room that is so disturbing to me in the gameroom only a few rooms away. I had plans to enjoy this morning in peace and quiet (well yeah the TV is on but what I mean is I wanted no extra annoying background noises) but no I guess I can't have that. And if the same sh*t happens tomorrow then I guess I'll never get that. Not until November when I get my first break from school I guess. This is the last week of summer and it's sh*t. I'm so sick and f*cking tired of everybody and their f*cking noise. I hate misophonia and it makes me wish that i was deaf sometimes.

1. What are you allergic to?

 

2. Sorry to hear that. I prefer some peace and quiet sometimes too. Every time my relatives come over to my house they bring their kids, a couple of them are around my age or so, but all the other ones are no older than 6. And they always do something stupid like have fist fights, make up crap, and who knows what and they always scream at the top of their lungs. It's stupid. "THE SWINGS ARE ALIVE! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!" Every time the little ones come to my house lol. Hope things get better for you.

 

 

 

So my family took my pop to the hospital and right in the middle of my therapy session i get a phone call saying he is on his last legs with small cases of cancer in the ICU unit and when i arrived he had 17 doctors that couldn't even get his blood pressure for 2 hours , wow f*cking wow, honestly sometimes my life is just totally f*cked i don't know what to do...

1. Cancer is a bitch. As well as other diseases and stuff that has no damn cure. It sucks to lose another one to cancer. One of my relatives died years ago from some brain disorder that makes them forget almost everything they've learned. It sucks. I'm sorry to hear that. I really am.

 

2. What you posted doesn't go with your signature. Just saying.

Edited August 21, 2014 by LightningLord411

[Xavierr]

So I just found out my general manager and I are neighbors....

 

Feels weird.

 

I'm also feeling awkward, but content.

Edited August 22, 2014 by Xavierr

[Alexander]

It's 1:40am, I'm so freaking hungry.

I want a sandwich.

 

 

So I just found out my general manager and I are neighbors....

 

Feels weird.

 

I'm also feeling awkward, but content.

Dude, you always say you feel awkward.

 

Anyway, do you think he's a bad boss or something? Because he's your neighbor now. You can always buy a fake snake and throw it by the bathroom window while he's taking a dump or something.

[kevin de santa]

Do you guys Ever see than something really bad is happening to you and you can't stop it? I can see this is gonna drag me right back into depression but I'm not doing anything about it i can't

[Xavierr]

I'm not sure how I feel about my living near my GM because I had this whole scene where I was convinced I was gonna get fired.

 

And I felt awkward because this chick gave me a ride home,I'm attracted to her so it was kinda hard to be myself, I would end up mumbling , having to repeat myself, and conversations felt kinda forced at times haha

 

But I felt content because I had enough balls to ask her for a ride, and we did have conversations ( even if they weren't that great), and even if she percieves me as really awkward now, at least we're not such strangers to each other now.

[IveGotNoValues]

Do you guys Ever see than something really bad is happening to you and you can't stop it? I can see this is gonna drag me right back into depression but I'm not doing anything about it i can't

I know exactly what you mean man. It's a horrible feeling. Like just when things are getting better and suddenly you can feel something bad brewing up again, which ruins all the progress you have made and sends you back to the depths of depression. I've been there many times.

[The Harwood Bitcher]

Do you guys Ever see than something really bad is happening to you and you can't stop it? I can see this is gonna drag me right back into depression but I'm not doing anything about it i can't

Except that a loved one is dying,there is nothing you can do

If is something else,get up and do something about it

Even if you fail trying ,at least you actually did something other that have an excuse to be depressed

Edited August 22, 2014 by The Harwood Bitcher

[LanaDelRey888]

An update to my dilemmna a page or two back.

 

I have decided to take my lovely wife out for some shopping and dinner this weekend. We haven't eaten out in months, and the only shopping she does are for the basic necessities for the house. The main reasons for these were that we have been financially struggling for more than a few months now, and my ex-wife's constant pestering for money did take a toll on our marriage badly. I was also depressed to find my beautiful wife trying hard to make the our life together work, by working an average job herself to help support our life.

[EphemeralStar]

Some stupid ass bitch is complaining about how much attention ALS is getting because of the ice bucket challenge and that other charities such as UNICEF and Diabetes foundation aren't getting any attention because they don't have their own "cool fad videos"
Seriously, stfu you dumb bitch. Both of those organizations are probably some of the top highest grossing charities and ALS was relatively unknown before all of these videos and it's GREAT that it's getting the attention and awareness that it deserves! It's not like suddenly everyone just stops donating to the other charities and only donates to ALS now. The f*cking stupidity of some people. Anyone who complains about people raising awareness and money for a good cause/charity can go shove a stick up their ass.

[Aby]

Some stupid ass bitch is complaining about how much attention ALS is getting because of the ice bucket challenge and that other charities such as UNICEF and Diabetes foundation aren't getting any attention because they don't have their own "cool fad videos"

Seriously, stfu you dumb bitch. Both of those organizations are probably some of the top highest grossing charities and ALS was relatively unknown before all of these videos and it's GREAT that it's getting the attention and awareness that it deserves! It's not like suddenly everyone just stops donating to the other charities and only donates to ALS now. The f*cking stupidity of some people. Anyone who complains about people raising awareness and money for a good cause/charity can go shove a stick up their ass.

 

 

Agreed. Heard somebody bitching about it because people should just donate instead of "fishing for attention" with the challenge, but the challenge is the whole reason awareness is being raised. Most people who complete the challenge donate anyway.