Share Your Feelings

[AlienTwo]

You always have something nice to say to the unhappy ranters AlienTwo. Wouldn't be worth it without something like you!

Ha. Half the time I'm shaking my stick yelling "Get off my lawn! Hey.. aren't you a PBM anyway??"

[Aqua97]

Loving all the shows on Discovery at the moment...

• Railroad Alaska
• Gold Divers
• Mythbusters
• Gold Rush
• Alaska: The Last Frontier
• Alaskan Bush People
• Gold Rush
• Flying Wild Alaska

And many many many more........

Edited January 4, 2016 by Aqua

[Mr. Scratch]

 

You always have something nice to say to the unhappy ranters AlienTwo. Wouldn't be worth it without something like you!

Ha. Half the time I'm shaking my stick yelling "Get off my lawn! Hey.. aren't you a PBM anyway??"

 

 

I just assume anyone I've never seen here before is one tbh.

[DarkSavageDeathlyCloud]

I feel like i shoud be gratefull for bad experiences i had.

Having had bad friends that manipulated me made me be cautious with people

being bullied made me have a decent pit of anger, that is ready to be used as energy when it i need that energy.

being depressed made me lose my overly optimistic misguided point of view on life

being gay and having bad social skills made me able to see the world in a perspective that has no place to see true right or wrong and see all people as equaly important, if important at all for my personal welfare.

having been angry, socialy akward and gay made me having an small interest in psychology...wich did many things.

Thanks to all that i now understand you shoud not value most people you meet as having any value at all, yet made me aware that there always shoud be a sertain respect involved...especialy if people respect you, because otherwise youre acting self-destructive.

-having had a brother that was pretty abusive during childhood made me relize family is not something holly...it contains all sorts of regular people

-having seen my father die a pretty slow death made me both adjust to the thought losing my most beloved person i ever had and it did not destroy me...hell i can cope with it then i ever imagened.

So whoever dies the next time, i will be able to withstand it.

further, seeing the aftermath of all that financialy speaking...an aftermath in wich my own goverment, banks and other groups realy realy ripped my mother off in ways i never had imagened made me relize it is wrong to rely on such things in the end

making me see my father die before he coud retire made me relize the same thing.

-having had break ups made me relize no relation is unconditional.

-almos5 getting myself hooked to a psychiatrist made me also learn about self destructive behaviour...and because of that i learned to control my inner dark side.

 

they were all such amazing valuable lessons...if none of those things ever happened so early i woud not be the person i was today....seriously...f*cking thanks all those things happened

[drifter.]

Wish I could see into the future. Maybe then I'd honestly know what I want to do with my life.

 

I mean I'm on a path to get a successful career right now, but it feels like I'm kind going through the motions, biting my nails, hoping everything doesn't fall apart.

[Aqua97]

 

Edited January 4, 2016 by Aqua

[Lilіth]

It's been a while since I last saw snow, it brought a few of the better memories back.

[Mr. Scratch]

Snow can go f*ck itself as far as I'm concerned. It's nothing but a pain in the ass.

[Chewie]

Hey, the whining part is part of why these threads exist, so don't feel bad, especially as you do contribute a lot of non-bitching and moaning.

 

It's hard to really think of things in perspective, especially when you've not lived through the years I'm about to speak of, but still, sometimes it helps to try... to remember that you are at the very beginning of your journey, you have a lot of miles to travel and days to while-away. You can still pull yourself up if you do stumble and fall, because, as a famous billionaire's dad once said, we fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up, dust off the mistakes and move forward with the determination and added wisdom of the experience. That isn't to say give up and allow the failure, but it is a reason to not freeze up with the fear of that failure preventing any hope of success. It's no biggie, life moves on, the days pass as they tend to and recent, painful memory transmutes to distant, sometimes amusing, recollection.

 

As for the $12/hr warehouse job... take it. Plenty of opportunity for overtime and extra money as well some fun experiences and a healthy (physically at least) daily occupation. Don't worry too much about the fulfillment aspect, that's why you're in school, right? Just do the work because it's there and that is getting to be a rarer and rarer thing, and know this isn't your always-life, this isn't your destiny (not that it would be the end of the world if it were), you make your own future, and it won't be decided right now with this one single job.

 

Thank you. I appreciate that a lot. I all ready have a job that's waiting for me after I get off of my break. It's a pretty easy job and I make $10.04 an hour. I hardly do anything and get paid. I walk around the campus and do other things.. I probably will only work 20 hours or less depending on how well I handle school again.

 

I'm doing a lot better than I was in October. In October I went to this mental health program for 7 weeks. They increased my medicine and my paranoia went from twice a week to once every so often. I was really depressed, anxious and I had paranoid attacks twice a week back then. Now I'm not depressed, I'm anxious but it's not that bad compared to how it was before. I haven't gotten paranoid in over 16 days. Well, something happened today but I don't consider it paranoia. I was really hyper aware of my surroundings when I was driving home. Now that I think of it I think it was an emotional flashback. A flashback is when you remember certain things from your past and it reminds you of it. I saw flashing blinkers from cars around me when I was waiting behind an intersection to turn and it reminded me of my nervous breakdown. When I hallucinated I would see flashing lights on cars and think that they were messages to kill me. Really insane stuff.

[Sombra]

my long time homie lost his virginity on NYE and i feel like a proud dad

[Chewie]

my long time homie lost his virginity on NYE and i feel like a proud dad

My best friend still needs to lose his virginity. He's 22. lol He's been in a good college in CA and there's a lot of girls there.

[Sombra]

my homies 17 and scored a solid 10 considering hes a little on the tubby side

 

meanwhile my first girl was a little (alot) on the tubby side

[Chewie]

my homies 17 and scored a solid 10 considering hes a little on the tubby side

 

meanwhile my first girl was a little (alot) on the tubby side

I lost my virginity when I was 18 to my first gf who wore a yellow dress to Senior Ball and people called her a yellow bus because she was a lot on the "tubby" side. I found that out a long time after we broke up lmfao. I seriously hated her because she did some f*cked up sh*t to me.

 

 

 

 

 

Edited January 5, 2016 by kamuran

[Sombra]

so we both got f*cked up by chubby chicks

 

good common ground between us

 

 

also holy f*ck its weird seeing you without that beard lol

Edited January 5, 2016 by Blaze

[Chewie]

so we both got f*cked up by chubby chicks

 

good common ground between us

 

 

also holy f*ck its weird seeing you without that beard lol

Yeah that picture was 4 years ago.

 

I have to shave my beard before the 25th because my job doesn't allow beards. It sucks. I've grown it out for over 2 months.

[Wolf of Badenoch]

I know that virtually no-one reads my posts (most of which are nothing but whiny rants and don't actually contribute anything to the site) but I really need to get this off my chest. Feel like I'm gonna implode if I don't...

I'm on the verge of a breakdown. Been fighting back the tears for the past few hours and almost completely falling apart several times over the course of the night. Not sure what triggered this particular mental episode, but I have a pretty good idea: loneliness. Crippling, suffocating loneliness taking a gradual toll on my already fractured mind. Seeing couples everywhere I look just makes me feel 100 times worse. The bitterness, anger and resentment starts to bubble up inside whenever I happen to glance at a couple on the street or on the bus and thoughts of the 'Some people have all the luck?' persuasion automatically start to swirl around in my head, no matter how much I try to resist them. Sometimes, I even get the feeling that a few couples like to deliberately rub in the fact that they're happily in a relationship in front of horribly lonely people like me, rubbing salt in the consistently raw wound. Delusional? Maybe so. But, it wouldn't surprise me if some people do it just to wind lonely people up. It's a well-established fact that some people can be that petty, small-minded and cruel.

 

Sometimes, I honestly feel like a inadequate, unwanted failure who would be better off giving up hope and get used to the idea of dying alone before the age of 35, possibly sooner (that's less of a prediction, more of a stone-cold fact). I guess the ragged, exhausted sobs trying to escape was me struggling to accept the inevitability of that reality coming to pass. I'm at an uneasy peace with it now. Emphasis on 'uneasy'. The tears are still bubbling under the blotched, acne-ridden surface, waiting to come flooding out at any given time.

 

This quote from a certain medical dramedy really resonates with me: 'Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around.' As much as it stings to even type it out here, it perfectly describes me: surrounded by loving family and friends, but feeling totally isolated, alone and with utterly no chance of finding Mr. Right (Am gay). Ever.

 

If this post seemed like nothing more than a rambling bitch-fest at the heavens, that's exactly what it was. That's what this thread is here for.

 

One last thing from this broken little mind before it switches off for the night: To those of you in a relationship, do something to let your other half know how much they mean to you every once in a while. You may not realize it, but you're among the luckiest people alive. Treasure every moment you spend with them. Don't waste a single moment. Do everything in your conceivable power to hold on to them. And just tell them you love them. Sometimes, the simplest of gestures can have the biggest impact...

Edited January 5, 2016 by Wolf of Badenoch

[Chewie]

I know that virtually no-one reads my posts (most of which are nothing but whiny rants and don't actually contribute anything to the site) but I really need to get this off my chest. Feel like I'm gonna implode if I don't...

 

I'm on the verge of a breakdown. Been fighting back the tears for the past few hours and almost completely falling apart several times over the course of the night. Not sure what triggered this particular mental episode, but I have a pretty good idea: loneliness. Crippling, suffocating loneliness taking a gradual toll on my already fractured mind. Seeing couples everywhere I look just makes me feel 100 times worse. The bitterness, anger and resentment starts to bubble up inside whenever I happen to glance at a couple on the street or on the bus and thoughts of the 'Some people have all the luck?' persuasion automatically start to swirl around in my head, no matter how much I try to resist them. Sometimes, I even get the feeling that a few couples like to deliberately rub in the fact that they're happily in a relationship in front of horribly lonely people like me, rubbing salt in the consistently raw wound. Delusional? Maybe so. But, it wouldn't surprise me if some people do it just to wind lonely people up. It's a well-established fact that some people can be that petty, small-minded and cruel.

 

Sometimes, I honestly feel like a inadequate, unwanted failure who would be better off giving up hope and get used to the idea of dying alone before the age of 35, possibly sooner (that's less of a prediction, more of a stone-cold fact). I guess the ragged, exhausted sobs trying to escape was me struggling to accept the inevitability of that reality coming to pass. I'm at an uneasy peace with it now. Emphasis on 'uneasy'. The tears are still bubbling under the blotched, acne-ridden surface, waiting to come flooding out at any given time.

 

This quote from a certain medical dramedy really resonates with me: 'Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around.' As much as it stings to even type it out here, it perfectly describes me: surrounded by loving family and friends, but feeling totally isolated, alone and with utterly no chance of finding Mr. Right (Am gay). Ever.

 

If this post seemed like nothing more than a rambling bitch-fest at the heavens, that's exactly what it was. That's what this thread is here for.

 

One last thing from this broken little mind before it switches off for the night: To those of you in a relationship, do something to let your other half know how much they mean to you every once in a while. You may not realize it, but you're among the luckiest people alive. Treasure every moment you spend with them. Don't waste a single moment. Do everything in your conceivable power to hold on to them. And just tell them you love them. Sometimes, the simplest of gestures can have the biggest impact...

I read all of this man. This topic is meant to share your feelings. Don't worry about sharing your feelings. There's plenty of people out there that are lonely like you. You need to know that people that are in relationships aren't always usually happy with their significant others. There's sometimes a lot of problems in relationships. Just from personal experience. There's ups and downs like in life. I've been lonely in the past but I don't care anymore. I've wanted a girlfriend in the past but I don't care anymore. I rather work on myself than get in a relationship when I'm not mentally strong. Just because you see a lot of couples out there doesn't mean they are all happy. You'll find someone. We all will. You just have to wait and that special someone will come into your life. I know how hard it is to struggle from personal experiences with mental illness and I know it's hard. I know how pain feels. The first thing you need to do before you get into a relationship is take care of yourself. Focus on yourself. You need to be happy and content with yourself before you can be with someone else. You won't be happy in a relationship if you're not happy with yourself. Well, you'll be happy to be with someone but then you'll feel horrible when you break up and you'll be at square one. Personally, that's why I'm waiting before I go out there and try to find a girlfriend. I've been single for over a year. If you are suffering which it sounds like you are. I suggest going to a therapist. They really help. You can just talk about anything and don't have to worry about someone judging you. I hope you feel better man.

 

This is something about me. I sometimes feel sad out of the blue, like right now. I don't know what it is. I just feel a little sad. I feel sad and nauseous. I think it might be because I'm stressed out thinking about going back to school. I really don't look forward to it. I still have 21 days and I'm future tripping too much. I might be bored too. I don't know. I feel like I'm on the verge of tears.

Edited January 5, 2016 by kamuran

[Landotel]

I am happy and I am tired.

[UshaB]

Loneliness

 

Like kamuran, I read all of this. Strangely enough, you're not alone. I know how you're feeling dude, for now I have stopped my pursuit and thought of knight and shining armour bullcrap with a twinkle of Romeo and Juliet sh*t. Now I'm going to focus on me and do what I dream of doing and the relationship stuff can come later. My only advice that I can give is build your own confidence, dedicate yourself on achieving your dreams and soon a relationship shall soon follow. Confidence my friend will unlock everything.

Edited January 5, 2016 by UshaB

[Crossed]

I embrace the loneliness and madness. Becoming a video game addicted stoner an binge opiate user. Mostly marijuanas. Mostly madness and the line of reality with fallout 4 blurring. Find myself collecting duct tape in rl for that armor mod...

[Mr. Scratch]

Damn, that's edgy as f*ck.

[ciel]

They finally got my name right, usually its Kat or Karen. #whitegirlproblems

 

 

 

 

[The Dedito Gae]

I have to shave my beard before the 25th because my job doesn't allow beards. It sucks. I've grown it out for over 2 months.

Your beard is awful m8, you look much better with a clean shave.

 

I am a cock gobbler and I love to gobble cocks.

[Aqua97]

I love it when I go across to England and people see the Manx license plate, it always catches peoples eyes.

[dice]

I embrace the loneliness and madness. Becoming a video game addicted stoner an binge opiate user. Mostly marijuanas. Mostly madness and the line of reality with fallout 4 blurring. Find myself collecting duct tape in rl for that armor mod...

how many marijuanas do you take?

[Flachbau]

 

They finally got my name right, usually its Kat or Karen. #whitegirlproblems

 

 

 

 

It looks like "Kak" to me.

Definitely looks like Kalc.

[Crossed]

 

I embrace the loneliness and madness. Becoming a video game addicted stoner an binge opiate user. Mostly marijuanas. Mostly madness and the line of reality with fallout 4 blurring. Find myself collecting duct tape in rl for that armor mod...

how many marijuanas do you take?

Not enough. Maybe 10 liters.

[Mr. Scratch]

They finally got my name right, usually its Kat or Karen. #whitegirlproblems

 

 

 

 

 

You sure? Because it looks like they wrote Kak instead.

 

EDIT: Ninja'd.

Edited January 5, 2016 by Mr. Scratch

[Flachbau]

Now it looks like it says Kale

[Coin]

Nah, I can see it. Just not particularly good cursive, assuming it is handwritten.