Share Your Feelings

[E.A.B.]

Are half of the comments on here about relationships and women?

Yes its the only thing in life that I guess means the most to people relationships and people you love.

I can understand, but the way it consumes some people and becomes their chief concern is off-putting. I can understand because that was me a few years back. Then I realized that I don't even know how I wanna live my life, and now I see all these different issues that dwarf 'who am I gonna f*ck'.

 

As for your own issue, chill out. You don't need to be the perfect man for any woman, because no woman is perfect herself. As your relationship grows, you can reveal yourself more. Women don't care as long as you're confident and relaxed about it. Women have their own peculiarities as well. So don't try putting on false airs, otherwise you'll eventually reveal yourself once she moves into that house you seem to be decorating.

 

As long as the real you isn't a psycho-sexual murderer or a child molester, then don't worry about it. She'll fall in love with your personality, not your hobbies.

[johnny_zoo]

 

I do not see her sticking around a moment longer if you continue this weird/crazy obsession with her. Best advice? Take a f*cking chill pill on your feelings right now and for the love of god don't come on strong what so ever right now. If she's already been put off by your willingness already then she sure as hell won't put up with it again and she'll be out the door faster than you can tie your laces together. Just relax, you have her as a friend right now - you don't even have her number. Best bet? Go and hang out with her a little more (without sounding obsessed or crazy) and just spend that time together. Sooner or later she'll ask if she can have your number or whatever. Build the foundation forget about trying to decorate that house like you seem to be doing right now.

 

I don't know much, but having a guy continuously push too much out of a friendship within such a short time is really off putting. If she's said she likes you then just take things slow. If things are meant to happen then they will naturally progress without you having to bust your balls and scare her off.

Good to get a girl's perspective on this, but yeah I agree I need to detach from the outcome and just relax, mess about more and be myself. Not try to "decorate the house" as you put it. Its hard to hang out cos shes always behind her reception desk at uni and haven't managed to get to the point yet where I can hang with her outside uni. I makes excuses to talk to her like asking "dumb" questions just to chat to her. Its hard meeting girls cos my social network is not that great but whatever cant stress about that.

 

She hasn't categorically said she likes me but she knows I like her, I made it too bleeding obvious it was hilarious! But she hasnt said get lost to me so I assumed she likes me back.

 

 

You shouldn't feel bad that you are better off than others but you can empathize. I have been through a lot in the past fifteen months or so and one thing I have noticed is that most people who haven't been through rough times can't appreciate how hard it is to cope with depression and stuff like that.

 

I used to feel bad about being happy too. At times I wished I wouldn't be happy ever again because it seemed that I would always end up being sad again. I pretty much got used to being sad, it put me in perspective for most of the time. I had gotten an insight into some of the things that are wrong within human relations, things that most people don't notice, little but important things.

 

I am actually quite happy that I went through all that, it changed me for the better.

 

Right now I feel focused again on the present, I feel a void inside. This reminds me of one experience I had one day during last year's summer. I felt my whole body vibrate, I had constant goose bumps so to say for a couple of minutes pretty much out of nowhere. That was probably the greatest feeling I have ever had.

 

I like this girl as well (as you probably know from the "virgin" topic) though I'm not sure how it's going to turn out. Knowing my odds it will probably not end up with us being together, at least not for now. It's all a bit too difficult to approach a girl you don't talk to regularly. I will instead try to be spontaneous without being a douche or something like that, thinking about it too much, planning isn't going to work for me. I tried that kind of stuff before and it only made me nervous.

 

I'm glad you got through it nice to hear that I'm not the only one who feels that way. You want my advice? screw social convention! Just because you dont talk regularly don't mean you cant approach her. Just do it if you like her she will no doubt feel complimented and her self esteem will increase, she will not avoid you. Take a chance I say and don't wait around. Time is short and you need to take these chances before they grow wings and take off.

 

As for planning fair enough if that not your thing but plannign does work if done right. This girl I want I will influence circumstances around me JUST so I can talk to her. I booked a career appointment on a day where I know she would be in and we could talk. Planning is not a bad thing if you think about it. You only get out of life what you put in.

[DEALUX]

Yeah, I think I could pull it off, after all we are neighbors and she lives right next to my house. For that reason it shouldn't be weird if I tried talking to her, but I just don't know what to say really. I guess I'll come up with something on the spot if I'm not too nervous or something.

 

There's not much in the way of planning that I could do. I know the time of the day when she's most likely to be outside and what areas she wanders about. I happen to see her pretty much everyday anyway, so I don't need to plan anything but to go out at that time of the day. I have been meaning to talk to her but I haven't gotten the chance yet, I want to do it when she's alone or almost.

 

By the way, the challenge is still on I guess. Good luck to you!

[WF the Hobgoblin]

 

Are half of the comments on here about relationships and women?

Yes its the only thing in life that I guess means the most to people relationships and people you love.

I can understand, but the way it consumes some people and becomes their chief concern is off-putting. I can understand because that was me a few years back. Then I realized that I don't even know how I wanna live my life, and now I see all these different issues that dwarf 'who am I gonna f*ck'.

 

Well that's probably because a good number of the posters here are just miserable teenagers who think their lives suck because some girl doesn't notice them when in actuality, they have never experienced any real problems.

[Audiophile]

I am just extremely tired, anxious and pissed off right now.

 

I am getting ready to go back to campus so that's stressing me out but before I left I decided to have the genius idea of ordering my textbooks online ($700 worth of textbooks... ). Seems simple enough. Nope. Not when Purolator is handling the package. I got a call yesterday asking me what my buzz code is, I told them, they told me "great expect the delivery tomorrow from 9 a.m - 3 p.m."

 

I stayed in the house all day waiting for this damn package with the phone nearby and it never came. I didn't even have the tracking number because my university shipped it thru them to me. Finally called the campus bookstore and they gave me the number and told me that apparently Puro-later tried to deliver it but failed because I didn't give them a buzz code.

 

MFW they called me yesterday and asked for one. So finally with the tracking number, I call Puro-later and they tell me that they have no buzz code on record. Plus, apparently they "tried" to deliver, and yet when I went downstairs to the lobby to check for the delivery slip. Nothing.

 

Dafuq? Who the hell called me yesterday and asked for my buzz code then? So I gave the customer service guy my buzz code and he checked my address to make sure it was the right one on record....yup.

 

Now they have everything they need and I bet you something will still go wrong. I've had issues with them 100% of the time. Last time they delievered my package to the wrong address and I had to drive half an hour to their depot to pick it up. The first time the guy didn't even attempt to get me my package and just dropped off a missed delivery slip. When you pick up a package it's like you're trying to pass an FBI security check. Every single time they blame you.

 

The first time I had issues with them they used the "you were probably in the bathroom and didn't hear the phone" excuse. I was like okay, so where is the delivery slip? "We don't leave those at condos because it's not secure". Seems legit.

 

So basically this is not helping with my stress and moving back to a campus I hate. I am dreading it.

 

EDIT: sh*t....should I have posted this in the rant thread? I apologise but I think I spammed that enough today with my V section rants. This novel is more about how frustrated I am feeling lately. Sorry for the long post.

Edited August 28, 2012 by Audiophile

[EscoLehGo]

I've realized recently that I don't need people to be content with life. I enjoy the company of some other human beings but I've learned that in a general sense I don't need them around to be happy, I think I was kind of clingy when I was younger when it came to friendships and relationships but now I just don't give a sh*t. It's a take it or leave it kind of thing, I recently cut a lot of people out of my "circle" to focus on my studies but now that that's over I'm slowly re-merging from the rock I had put myself under for the past half year or so. I started hanging out with this one kid again who's a real douche, while I was hiding under my rock he would send me texts that I would never respond to and now that I don't have any school obligations I finally responded to one that he sent and we ended up hanging out and getting piss drunk which is pretty much all we did together before I started living under the rock. I guess he's more of a drinking buddy than a friend, he's really hard to tolerate sober, he's like a young Mitt Romney. He constantly pats himself on the back and is always looking to be assured of how cool and awesome he is when he's really just a huge dick.

 

I actually did research on what his mental state might be and I'm pretty sure he has something the doctors call Histrionic Personality Disorder, hanging out with him at this point is more of a social experiment than anything else. I used to let a lot of the douchey stuff he did and said slide for the sake of peace but I've decided to start calling him out on it, maybe I can help him be less douchey although I think it's pretty well ingrained. He also lies, like a lot, so that can get exhausting to deal with.

 

One last note, I've also started to realize that whenever I reveal my true thoughts and personality to most people it seems to be really, really off putting. I'm pretty dark and cynical and it seems to get worse every year, everything's all good until I start to show the real me and it freaks most people out, not my drinking buddy though because he's kind of crazy too. It weirds a lot of girls out though, I don't reveal it to any females I talk to until I've already smashed that way I can't miss out on anything for creeping them out. I also don't know that I'll ever been in a real long term relationship ever again because my intellectual and personality standards for a mate are stupid high, physical not so much, it's hard to have a real conversation with a lot of these young broads out here. Maybe I need to go for older women, I don't know how to go about doing that though, my mom doesn't have any hot friends.

 

edit: Oh wow, look at this big block of emo text, well you asked for my feelings god damn it

[Audiophile]

Has anybody ever had to deal with a close family member committing suicide? I am currently working my way through that and I find myself never being able to surface because my situation in general right now is just sh*t.

[johnny_zoo]

Has anybody ever had to deal with a close family member committing suicide? I am currently working my way through that and I find myself never being able to surface because my situation in general right now is just sh*t.

Wow that some serious stuff dude. I've never dealt with a suicide so I can't say except time will heal all wounds. Everything requires time to get better you just have to be patient and you will feel better. How close is the family relation?

[Audiophile]

It was my father. It just really sucks. He was just in his mid 40's and my parents had twins 2 years ago. He was there to raise me and see me grow up but my younger siblings won't have a father from now on and well....I won't either. And that just sucks.

 

I've been away at university and living on campus for the majority of last year and according to my siblings my parents went through serious marital issues during that time period. I mean I knew there were issues and I saw some of them when I came back after the year ended, but I just didn't know how bad because I wasn't there to experience it first hand all those other times when sh*t hit the fan. Anyways...

 

My father suffered from bipolar and when he lost his job a few months ago it was pretty hard on him. We're originally from Australia but moved to Canada because my mum works in marketing and got a great job offer here. So the entire family moved and I decided to study here. I guess what I am trying to say is that, yeah I know people here and I do have friends but I am pretty isolated aside from that so there isn't really a great support system in place. I don't really want to share this with the few friends I have here because I don't want them to treat me differently or give me special treatment. That's just going to make me feel worse and remind me of this every single time. I've been basically acting the past few days and pretending all is well. I guess it's my own way of avoiding having to deal with the reality of it.

 

I'm really anxious about how my mother is going to cope after I start university again on the 4th. I don't want to leave her all on her own. My other siblings will be there, but I am still going to worry. And I guess anxious about myself coping with it when I will be hours away from home.

 

Don't know. I guess there was more I wanted to say but I'm tired right now.

[johnny_zoo]

Sounds hard man I can sympathise with you marital problems as my parents are going throught the same thing right now. They are not arguing as much now but when they do its not frightening but very disheartening and makes me think twice about marriage.

 

As for your dad the only thing I can think of is to keep as much contact with your Mom as possible she needs someone to talk to from time to time. Dont forget her once you go of to college.

Edited August 29, 2012 by johnny_zoo

[Sanjeem]

Hmm, I just saw this topic so I'm just going to post how I feel right now. Well, I'll start off by saying I hope you all had a great summer, I sure as hell did. The Highlight of it was going back to my country of origin, Italy. I think that's the highlight of my summer every year, I just love it there, every single bit of it. I love my friends there, although I only get to see them for one month a year, they are like my childhood friends since I've known them since I was a little kid. When I go over there it's almost like I spend everyday with them. I actually miss them loads, I really wish I could see them more often, they're just the best. Even though some of them are sociopathic pricks who you can't trust at all, they are what they are. Most of them would help me in any situation if they could. I like seeing my family over there as well, it's like I'm there son almost. I appreciate them 100%, I just wish I showed it more, that goes for all my family as well.

 

Well, will be heading back to school in a couple of days, will be good to see all my friends again, at least this time we get to wear suits and stuff, so it will be a little better in terms of dressing Peace all.

[Chunkyman]

Fantastic!

 

Having been left to my own devices for an extended period of time, I've been forced to cook. Today I made a tasty pasta that had a can of Alfredo sauce, two cans of tuna, a can of diced tomatoes, 4 strips of extra thick bacon, and black pepper. The noodles were from a 17 ounce (big) pack of spiral shaped macaronis. It was slightly creamy and the tomatoes soaked the noodles in a wonderful flavor. The tuna and bacon were icing on the cake!

 

Considering I never cook, I'm rather proud of making something fairly tasty.

[Finn 7 five 11]

This sounds really f*cking stupid, but i don't really care, the point is to vent.

 

Story is i used to be really good on the trampoline, i could do backflips, front flips, reverse front/backflips, front-flip 180's front flps 360's, backflips 180/360/720.

But i tried a double backflip twice (at school on olympic trampoline, first time i almost fell off the trampoline, the second time i landed straight down on the floor.

Ever since i stopped doing tricks on the trampoline, it was like 4 years ago.

 

Now i can still do a front-flip and did a backflip a few weeks back, but yesterday and today i tried a back flip probably 100 times and i can't do it.

I have an unshakeable fear of flipping backwards, everytime i try i somehow do a front flip, makes no sense and it f*cking pisses me off to know end, i punched a tree afterwards, i am so frustrated that i can't do it and i don't understand! i really just want to break something!

ARRRG!

 

I feel better now, but i still can't flip, i might have to get someone to flip me over for me.

Edited September 6, 2012 by finn4life

[Notna]

I have an unshakeable fear of flipping backwards, everytime i try i somehow do a front flip

I have this as well. It's awful.

[Exxon]

I can do also do a frontflip and backflip, my friend taught it to me.

I don't think I can explain how, but you just jump and land on your back first and then let your legs bounce so you do somewhat of a backflip (don't forget to retract your legs!).

After doing this a few times, I just though 'f*ck it' and I just did a backflip. I know it's vague, but try it

[Greenline]

Michelle Obama called me amazing, f*ck yeah.

 

It's because I subscribed to their Newsfeed thingy.

 

 

Anyways, I've been having some nice dreams recently, so that's pretty cool.

[Exxon]

Anyways, I've been having some nice dreams recently, so that's pretty cool.

Tell us

[Notna]

I can do also do a frontflip and backflip, my friend taught it to me.

I don't think I can explain how, but you just jump and land on your back first and then let your legs bounce so you do somewhat of a backflip (don't forget to retract your legs!).

After doing this a few times, I just though 'f*ck it' and I just did a backflip. I know it's vague, but try it

I can do that back bounce backflip thing, but yeah

[DEALUX]

Michelle Obama called me amazing, f*ck yeah.

 

It's because I subscribed to their Newsfeed thingy.

 

 

Anyways, I've been having some nice dreams recently, so that's pretty cool.

Lol, you have just reminded of the most awesome dream I have had in ages. I had this dream like two weeks ago or something and I completely forgot. In the dream Obama was my best friend. I was hanging out with the president and he was really cool, like the best friend I could ever have. I woke up from that dream with a good feeling.

 

 

[Greenline]

Anyways, I've been having some nice dreams recently, so that's pretty cool.

Tell us

Hehe, in the most recent one, I was in the 1960s and we were in some guys house. It was really cool, it was semi-lucid, so it was like a time-machine, and I could go around the city. We were in Zahedan, if it matters, which is weird because I've never been to Zahedan.

 

You can't really put it into words, it's just cool when you have it and you wake up.

 

@____: Haha, that sounds great.

[Sneakerhead.]

I have an unshakeable fear of flipping backwards, everytime i try i somehow do a front flip

I have this as well. It's awful.

I know how you two feel, everytime I try to do a backflip, I have a unfixable fear of landing on my neck and being paralized for the rest of my life.

[GTA_fear]

Aahhh, one of the best topics on this forum once again...

 

I don't know. I've lately been feeling happy and sad at the same time. Don't know how to describe it. Good, but anxious.

 

I was recently in a dilemma. Although I was thinking, was convinced and was hoping that I'm not, I was having doubts about being gay. Not just gay, but I was thinking whether I am heterosexual, homosexual or asexual. Guys certainly don't appeal to me, lol, but I'm also sometimes repulsed by the thought of having le sexy time with a woman. ._. Kissing, holding hands, bla bla bla, ok. But sex... Blblblblbl.

But I guess that dilemma is now over and, as expected, turns out I'm (still) straight.

 

That said, and to get back to the beginning of the post, I guess feel anxious because I simply need someone. A woman, that is, lol. To talk to honestly, without pressure. But on the other side, pretty much every girl (except one, but for the moment there is a barrier between us (no, not another guy)) just feels wrong. I feel it's just a waste of time, we're going to fall apart once high school is over, anyways; I don't feel like connecting to a certain person - and similar feelings.

And I guess I feel good because I'm generally happy and satisfied with my life.

 

Well, I'm done with my showing off. Weeee, that feels good, I think.

 

P.S. Oh and today at school we talked about a Croatian writer who wrote poems similar to Petrarca's (Petrarch's?). Those poems almost made me cry, lol. Think I'm gonna go read through Petrarca's "Canconiero" (is that the English name for it...?).

Aaaaand, also, one of my better friends these days is music. Trance, more precisely. Helps me think and sort myself out.

Edited September 11, 2012 by GTAfear

[Exxon]

I don't exactly know what is specifically meant with 'Trance', but the perfect backgroundmusic is from Ratatat, the "Classics" album.

Just drums, guitars, bassguitars, piano and such but no voice. Pure Awesomeness

[El Zilcho]

I'm tired of cretins and incessantly exhausted from waking up at about 6 in order to catch a bus.

 

But conversely I will be attending a Halloween pool party, so there are positives.

Edited September 11, 2012 by El Zilcho

[Audiophile]

I'm tired of cretins and incessantly exhausted from waking up at about 6 in order to catch a bus.

 

But conversely I will be attending a Halloween pool party, so there are positives.

I know dat feel....I wake up at 6 a.m every day too in order to take a 2 hour bus/subway ride to university. It's been 2 weeks and I am already done and over it.

[caio3771]

I don't like when I dislike something and those stupid's call me hater.

If I don't like something don't mean I am a hater.

[Mr.Mister]

I'm so f*cking upset

 

Magically lose my bus pass and cell phone battery in a messy cab. Cab driver is impatient with me searching and kicks us out.

 

2 days later find the battery at a small store, now I have to wait 13 days for arrival. They had to order abunch in. And it costed 50 bucks

 

FOR f*ck SAKES I CANT DO BUSINESS NOW WHICH MEANS I CANT MAKE MONEY WHICH MEANS I WONT BE ABLE TO PAY MY TUITION IN TIME f*ck YOU f*ck YOU f*ck YOUUUUUUUUU

[DEALUX]

 

@GTAfear I know how that feels. I'm in a similar position myself. I would like to have a relationship with a girl, have somebody to care about other than myself but at the same time I feel too comfortable being single. However, I don't think I should be wasting any more opportunities. I have been neglecting my social life a lot in the past five years or so and it will all get to me eventually if I continue like this, like it has done so before.

[Lethal Nizzle]

A mixture of excitement and sadness; I'm heading to university next Friday as are many of my friends (most to different universities) and it's going to be weird being so far apart. I mean, when I attended sixth form a lot of my friends dropped out and went to college/full-time work but I would still see them on the weekend or meet up in the week because they were based locally. Now we're spread out all over the country, it's weird. I'm not bawling my eyes out about it but it's just a crazy feeling realising how fast time's gone and how I really should've cherished school while it lasted.

[GTA36362355]

Feeling so upset.

She won't let me......... Not before marrying me.

I'm okay with it but f*ck! Its upsetting me.