Share Your Feelings

[gtamann123]

 

 

No offense or anything, maybe it's something I'm not getting the idea of, but why are you so upset about not finding a girl? Sure, it sucks to be lonely and all. I'm lonely every day, practically.. but you should totally focus more on what you want to be in life. If you're working, maybe try to be a better employee and work harder and add a bit more effort and what not Actually, f*ck all of that, just try to be a better you. Nobody else can do that job.

I have been at my job for only about 9 months and I'm already one of the top employees on the crew of about 50 guys. I'm peaking at the age of 20 and it's distressing. Like seriously at this rate in 3 years I will probably be the top guy on the crew. So at the age of 23 I reached the top. And the only way to go once you reach the top is down

 

oh yeah and because my dad is so dumb with his money I have had to bail him out a lot and I haven't been able to save money at the pace I wanted. My goal was to be at $10k in saving by the end of this year and I'm at $4.4k now but I know I will have some major expenses coming up so the goal probably won't be met. In my original plan I would have had about $7500 by this time of the year. I'm just dissapointing myself in that regard.

 

It just all makes me really depressed

 

Ah yes... the gtamann I remember from when I first joined. Where have you been, son?I wasn't on the forums when I was trying to get my life in order but as you can see it isn't working. My life is still one giant ball of f*ck on pretty much every front Edited June 6, 2015 by gtamann123

[*MURDOC*]

Your life is really not nearly as bad as you make it out to be.

 

Seriously.

 

 

 

 

Seriously.

[mr quick]

 

No offense or anything, maybe it's something I'm not getting the idea of, but why are you so upset about not finding a girl? Sure, it sucks to be lonely and all. I'm lonely every day, practically.. but you should totally focus more on what you want to be in life. If you're working, maybe try to be a better employee and work harder and add a bit more effort and what not Actually, f*ck all of that, just try to be a better you. Nobody else can do that job.

I have been at my job for only about 9 months and I'm already one of the top employees on the crew of about 50 guys. I'm peaking at the age of 20 and it's distressing. Like seriously at this rate in 3 years I will probably be the top guy on the crew. So at the age of 23 I reached the top. And the only way to go once you reach the top is down

 

 

 

 

I'm not trying to instigate but this sh*t is retarded.

"I'm good at whatever the hell I do "

[gtamann123]

 

 

No offense or anything, maybe it's something I'm not getting the idea of, but why are you so upset about not finding a girl? Sure, it sucks to be lonely and all. I'm lonely every day, practically.. but you should totally focus more on what you want to be in life. If you're working, maybe try to be a better employee and work harder and add a bit more effort and what not Actually, f*ck all of that, just try to be a better you. Nobody else can do that job.

I have been at my job for only about 9 months and I'm already one of the top employees on the crew of about 50 guys. I'm peaking at the age of 20 and it's distressing. Like seriously at this rate in 3 years I will probably be the top guy on the crew. So at the age of 23 I reached the top. And the only way to go once you reach the top is down

 

 

 

I'm not trying to instigate but this sh*t is retarded.

"I'm good at whatever the hell I do "

Usually it takes atleast a decade or two to reach the top of your career field. So if it takes longer you have something to work towards and a goal to progres towards. When you peak in your early 20s you just plateau and sit at the top and the only way from the top is down. So you no longer have anything to work towards. It happened to my dad when he became the top quality inspector at the age of 26 and was in charge of quality control of a $75 million per year operation at only 26 and spent the next 10 years spinning his wheels because he had nowhere else to progress to and it kind of affected him mentally. When your young your restless and still want to move up. It's just hard wired into your nature. So reaching the pinnacle of your career field at a young age isn't a good thing Edited June 6, 2015 by gtamann123

[*MURDOC*]

Holy sh*t, the way your mind works is f*cking incomprehensible.

 

Get some f*cking help man.

[gtamann123]

Holy sh*t, the way your mind works is f*cking incomprehensible.

 

Get some f*cking help man.

All I'm trying to say Is that peaking early is never a good thing. Most people reach their career peak in their late or middle 40. Not their early 20s Edited June 6, 2015 by gtamann123

[Tyler]

You have been entranced by the system. You need to break out of your box before it kills your mind any more.

[*MURDOC*]

 

Holy sh*t, the way your mind works is f*cking incomprehensible.

 

Get some f*cking help man.

All I'm trying to say Is that peaking early is never a good thing. Most people reach their career peak in their late or middle 40. Not their early 20s

 

 

That's clearly not "all you're trying to say".

 

You're trying to say how awful your life is with your job and money, blah blah blah, get the f*ck over it, you're doing alright.

[Share Sharqi]

 

Holy sh*t, the way your mind works is f*cking incomprehensible.

 

Get some f*cking help man.

All I'm trying to say Is that peaking early is never a good thing. Most people reach their career peak in their late or middle 40. Not their early 20s

 

All of it sounds like really needy humble-bragging; next you'll be telling us that Albert Einstein was your third cousin, you lost your virginity with Anna Kendrick or, god forbid, are another person with an 'IQ' of '287' on this forum.

[gtamann123]

 

 

Holy sh*t, the way your mind works is f*cking incomprehensible.

 

Get some f*cking help man.

All I'm trying to say Is that peaking early is never a good thing. Most people reach their career peak in their late or middle 40. Not their early 20s

 

All of it sounds like really needy humble-bragging; next you'll be telling us that Albert Einstein was your third cousin, you lost your virginity with Anna Kendrick or, god forbid, are another person with an 'IQ' of '287' on this forum. Lol I'm not humble bragging because I have nothing to brag about. This forum is just my only social outlet where I can get stuff lIke this of my mind. Idk writing or talking about my thoughts and issues makes me feel better about them.

 

It all comes back to my main issue which is my frustration with my life at the moment. My future just looks bleak and it wears on me.

Edited June 6, 2015 by gtamann123

[johnny_zoo]

 

I have mixed emotions. I feel happy but I also feel melancholic. The first part of work today was awful but it ended well. Thats why Im happy. I felt great on the way home and still do but while walking I felt far away this inner loneliness was following me all the time. Like it was waiting for me to get out of my happy mood and then pounce and make me feel bad.

 

Yeah that's how I feel right now.

 

Where are you going? Who are you? Do you feel confident enough in yourself that you know those questions? If not, why not?

 

Good questions. I have a 'plan' but its vague at best. Really deep down I don't know the answers in any real detail.

 

 

 

No offense or anything, maybe it's something I'm not getting the idea of, but why are you so upset about not finding a girl? Sure, it sucks to be lonely and all. I'm lonely every day, practically.. but you should totally focus more on what you want to be in life. If you're working, maybe try to be a better employee and work harder and add a bit more effort and what not Actually, f*ck all of that, just try to be a better you. Nobody else can do that job.

I have been at my job for only about 9 months and I'm already one of the top employees on the crew of about 50 guys. I'm peaking at the age of 20 and it's distressing. Like seriously at this rate in 3 years I will probably be the top guy on the crew. So at the age of 23 I reached the top. And the only way to go once you reach the top is down

 

oh yeah and because my dad is so dumb with his money I have had to bail him out a lot and I haven't been able to save money at the pace I wanted. My goal was to be at $10k in saving by the end of this year and I'm at $4.4k now but I know I will have some major expenses coming up so the goal probably won't be met. In my original plan I would have had about $7500 by this time of the year. I'm just dissapointing myself in that regard.

 

It just all makes me really depressed

So find another work place. And you're 20, who the f*ck thinks about marriage and kids at that age? This isn't the 18th century.

 

I dont think thats all that bad. Having kids early means you can spend your latter days being active along with them.

[*MURDOC*]

It all comes back to my main issue which is my frustration with my life at the moment. My future just looks bleak and it wears on me.

 

 

You being frustrated with your life seems a bit ridiculous unless you have some sort of actual mental problem that is causing you to feel this way, you don't have it bad, you don't even have it okay, you have it pretty damn good, so either get over it and quit complaining or get some help for the way your feeling because it's not healthy to feel so awful about your decent life.

[Tyler]

Good questions. I have a 'plan' but its vague at best. Really deep down I don't know the answers in any real detail.

 

Don't sweat it: it's not uncommon to feel a bit lost in the world. Try to sit down one of these days and think, like really think, about what you value. Whatever it is you care about, work on building yourself around that. It's also useful to get a basic routine of diet and exercise, but that usually comes after you get an initial spark of inspiration from things you are passionate about. I can't stress enough the importance of things like schedules and interests: things like this give us a perspective and place in the world. That is essential in a place that is so chaotic.

[BS_BlackScout]

I feel I suck at everything.

I can't f*cking properly convert an IDE to V Archetype format file using newest NTA tool for V.

It just goes ape sh*t and the cordinates get all huge, f*ck this sh*t.

TL;DR I'm acting like a programmer while I'm not and now I'm mad cause I can't follow simple instructions, f*ck this sh*t.

[Mr. Scratch]

 

Good questions. I have a 'plan' but its vague at best. Really deep down I don't know the answers in any real detail.

 

Don't sweat it: it's not uncommon to feel a bit lost in the world. Try to sit down one of these days and think, like really think, about what you value. Whatever it is you care about, work on building yourself around that. It's also useful to get a basic routine of diet and exercise, but that usually comes after you get an initial spark of inspiration from things you are passionate about. I can't stress enough the importance of things like schedules and interests: things like this give us a perspective and place in the world. That is essential in a place that is so chaotic.

 

 

Schedules are the very things that will throw you into a routine and f*ck you up even worse. Sometimes spontaneity is more valuable.

[Lock n' Stock]

 

Feeling horrible right now. My pet lizard has gone missing in my back garden, what a f*cking nightmare. Just hoping he shows up.

When it's light out, start checking under everything he would've hid under. Most likely he's tucked himself under something out of nervousness, so he very well may still be in your garden

Well I just found him now. He was under a bush next to a neighbor's drive. Relived and all, but I can't let it happen again. Got to keep my eye on him at all times.

Edited June 6, 2015 by G.S.T

[reiniat]

 

Holy sh*t, the way your mind works is f*cking incomprehensible.

 

Get some f*cking help man.

All I'm trying to say Is that peaking early is never a good thing. Most people reach their career peak in their late or middle 40. Not their early 20s

 

What kind of nonsense is this, peaking early means you can put work second and pursue your dreams, find love, travel, and all those things people complain they miss from their childhood but never really do when they get the chance.

Your career is not everything and im finding a hard time believing that you havent considered that.

Edited June 6, 2015 by reiniat

[Abel.]

 

 

Good questions. I have a 'plan' but its vague at best. Really deep down I don't know the answers in any real detail.

 

Don't sweat it: it's not uncommon to feel a bit lost in the world. Try to sit down one of these days and think, like really think, about what you value. Whatever it is you care about, work on building yourself around that. It's also useful to get a basic routine of diet and exercise, but that usually comes after you get an initial spark of inspiration from things you are passionate about. I can't stress enough the importance of things like schedules and interests: things like this give us a perspective and place in the world. That is essential in a place that is so chaotic.

 

 

Schedules are the very things that will throw you into a routine and f*ck you up even worse. Sometimes spontaneity is more valuable.

 

 

Spontaneity is great when you're feeling good and are in a good place in your life, otherwise it's just mentally exhausting.

 

 

In times of stress a routine can take a lot of pressure off as you can focus more on improving your life rather than organising it.

[mr quick]

Yeah, organization can make life a lot easier if you're under pressure. I had 2 months off sh*t last summer, it got weird.

[wiizardii]

That movie sucked.

You talkin' to me?

[*MURDOC*]

 

That movie sucked.

You talkin' to me?

 

 

Oh hell no, that movie is one of my favourites!

[wiizardii]

 

 

That movie sucked.

You talkin' to me?

 

 

Oh hell no, that movie is one of my favourites!

 

Then who the hell else are you talkin' to?

[*MURDOC*]

The guy who posted right above where I said that.

 

You're not the only one here.

 

This'n...

 

I'm lonely too and maybe a little autistic. Sometimes I feel like I wanna stomp a guy's head in while wearing my favorite jacket with a scorpion on the back.

 

 

Looking back, I feel "sucked" is a bit harsh, but I wasn't a huge fan.

Edited June 6, 2015 by *MURDOC*

[Fonz]

Last night was f*cking crazy, I still can't fully comprehend what the hell happened. It was an end-of-the-year celebration/concert at school and some of my friends were performing, so I went to see them. When I got there I met up with this chick from Psychology class whom I had been chatting up... earlier that day she had told me of her fragile mental and physical health and past suicide attempt so I was taken aback by that, but I went on with it regardless ("hurr durr stick your dick in crazy" and all that all bullsh*t). The two of us then joined another girl from Psychology class (they're great friends), accompanied by a male friend of hers, a dude who seemed to be in his mid to late 40s and had the whole 'middle-aged rocker' persona going on. Both of them were stoned and drunk out of their minds—the dude hardly spoke, he just laughed at random things the whole night; she kept taking pictures of me and the aforementioned girl and blurting out some unintelligible sentences.

After a while of this, my friends were coming up on stage, so we all went in to see them. When they were done performing, I managed to sneak away with the girl, and we'd been getting closer and closer, hugging, kissing, rubbing up, throughout the night. When stuff was getting serious, she tells me she can't, because she hasn't formally broken up with her boyfriend and feels it's wrong, plus her mother was somewhere among the crowd and might see us. Now she wants to meet again next week and I'm not sure I should accept that—I'm not about to be cock-blocked once again in case she hasn't had the guts to tell her boyfriend in the face that she wants nothing to do with him.

 

TL;DR: Hollow. I'm exhausted and confused from dealing with a depressive suicidal girl, her friend and some weird character going through a mid-life crisis. I should probably focus on the exams from now on.

Edited June 6, 2015 by Black_MiD

[Tyler]

Schedules are the very things that will throw you into a routine and f*ck you up even worse.

 

Schedules are the very things that will allow you to depend on yourself and have stability to a degree that is not dependent on destructive habits-- of which is a good first step in establishing a solution to those in ill health of mind. Those who are more at peace with themselves and the world they live in tend to work with a sense of self-discipline: this follows because routine gives the mind the ability to flourish: we are most at comfort with familiar patterns, and when we are most comfortable, we can allow ourselves to be spontaneous. It is not through a lack of planning that we make progress with our selves. You do not become a bodybuilder by working out whenever you feel; you do not become a novelist by writing whenever you feel; you do not become a good parent by raising your kid whenever you want; you do not fix your mental health by working on it whenever you want. You must approach things with the intent of organizing them to some degree. Once you do that, creativity, spontaneity, etc, are not only easier, but also come more freely with the solace that you need not be anxious about your well-being. In other words, once we take steps to schedule our lives to the degree that we can know what we must do, then we can be truly free to think about what we want.

[mr quick]

Last night was f*cking crazy, I still can't fully comprehend what the hell happened. It was an end-of-the-year celebration/concert at school and some of my friends were performing, so I went to see them. When I got there I met up with this chick from Psychology class whom I had been chatting up... earlier that day she had told me of her fragile mental and physical health and past suicide attempt so I was taken aback by that, but I went on with it regardless ("hurr durr stick your dick in crazy" and all that all bullsh*t). The two of us then joined another girl from Psychology class (they're great friends), accompanied by a male friend of hers, a dude who seemed to be in his mid to late 40s and had the whole 'middle-aged rocker' persona going on. Both of them were stoned and drunk out of their minds—the dude hardly spoke, he just laughed at random things the whole night; she kept taking pictures of me and the aforementioned girl and blurting out some unintelligible sentences.

After a while of this, my friends were coming up on stage, so we all went in to see them. When they were done performing, I managed to sneak away with the girl, and we'd been getting closer and closer, hugging, kissing, rubbing up, throughout the night. When stuff was getting serious, she tells me she can't, because she hasn't formally broken up with her boyfriend and feels it's wrong, plus her mother was somewhere among the crowd and might see us. Now she wants to meet again next week and I'm not sure I should accept that—I'm not about to be cock-blocked once again in case she hasn't had the guts to tell her boyfriend in the face that she wants nothing to do with him.

 

TL;DR: Hollow. I'm exhausted and confused from dealing with a depressive suicidal girl, her friend and some weird character going through a mid-life crisis. I should probably focus on the exams from now on.

 

 

Or you know, don't get involved at all. It's a good way of life, not partaking in the up-f*cking of a life or a relationship.

[make total destroy]

There is no corn harvest without a regimented schedule.

[Fonz]

Or you know, don't get involved at all. It's a good way of life, not partaking in the up-f*cking of a life or a relationship.

 

I'm not f*cking it up, it's f*cked up already, at least according to her. She's walked away and cut all ties with her boyfriend, but has problems with this because she hasn't formally said it's over or something... It's weird stuff.

[wiizardii]

 

Last night was f*cking crazy, I still can't fully comprehend what the hell happened. It was an end-of-the-year celebration/concert at school and some of my friends were performing, so I went to see them. When I got there I met up with this chick from Psychology class whom I had been chatting up... earlier that day she had told me of her fragile mental and physical health and past suicide attempt so I was taken aback by that, but I went on with it regardless ("hurr durr stick your dick in crazy" and all that all bullsh*t). The two of us then joined another girl from Psychology class (they're great friends), accompanied by a male friend of hers, a dude who seemed to be in his mid to late 40s and had the whole 'middle-aged rocker' persona going on. Both of them were stoned and drunk out of their minds—the dude hardly spoke, he just laughed at random things the whole night; she kept taking pictures of me and the aforementioned girl and blurting out some unintelligible sentences.

After a while of this, my friends were coming up on stage, so we all went in to see them. When they were done performing, I managed to sneak away with the girl, and we'd been getting closer and closer, hugging, kissing, rubbing up, throughout the night. When stuff was getting serious, she tells me she can't, because she hasn't formally broken up with her boyfriend and feels it's wrong, plus her mother was somewhere among the crowd and might see us. Now she wants to meet again next week and I'm not sure I should accept that—I'm not about to be cock-blocked once again in case she hasn't had the guts to tell her boyfriend in the face that she wants nothing to do with him.

 

TL;DR: Hollow. I'm exhausted and confused from dealing with a depressive suicidal girl, her friend and some weird character going through a mid-life crisis. I should probably focus on the exams from now on.

 

 

Or you know, don't get involved at all. It's a good way of life, not partaking in the up-f*cking of a life or a relationship.

 

And I am sitting here laughing...

 

Most posts I see in this forum when it comes to relationships and love and all of that stuff is the original poster saying he/she meets this person in a party or somewhere and it either ends up with them kissing and eventually wanting to f*ck each other but then one steps up and say ''baby I can't I still have a boyfriend/my mom is here/my dad is here/ my parents will see me'' or some other bullsh*t.

 

Or the other one is the original poster saying he/she hooks up with this person in the internet and the flirt and chat (oh how adorable) and then eventually they realise that they can't meet each other because one lives on the other side of the planet, or the alternative is obviously these horrible dating sites.

 

Is this seriously how relationships begin nowadays? I mean what happened to the meet a girl, talk to her, become friends without having to kiss each other the first day, and then eventually becoming BF/GF. Atleast that's the way I always thought of it and how my parents raised me, not to f*ck the first woman I see and flirt with her and do all these dumb sh*t. I would rather be alone than knowing that I would regret all that one day, if I did it.

 

 

Sry If I sound redicilous, but that's just my erm, 'opinion' on the matter. Maybe I am still very young, but whatever.

Edited June 6, 2015 by Phoenix_Poop

[mr quick]

 

Or you know, don't get involved at all. It's a good way of life, not partaking in the up-f*cking of a life or a relationship.

 

I'm not f*cking it up, it's f*cked up already, at least according to her. She's walked away and cut all ties with her boyfriend, but has problems with this because she hasn't formally said it's over or something... It's weird stuff.

 

Didn't mean to imply you did. I'm just saying it's better to not get involved.