Crossed Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 So I spent the last Six years of my life putting the ex first. Lots of blood sweat an tears for her. She is gone for good now, I'm not taking her back and I know she isn't coming back, she has a new sugar daddy to drag down. We parted ways the first time in august 2013. We were homeless living in a tent. Funny cause that how are relationship started in 2009. Her crazy dad...get out etc. I lived next door at my aunts. I went an lived in my car with her till she graduated high school. I held a job an saved up. We moved to Nebraska. She couldnt hold a job and that resulted in money troubles and poor planning. Us back in california homeless. I'm never one to give up on someone despite all the sh*t they give me. So we parted ways in 2013. A month later she's talking to me again. I saved up an went back to Nebraska with nothing but two duffel bags an a Amtrak ticket. Things were good for a bit. Then she started lying and taking my car for weekends to visit her "grandparents". Not really, just was working on her new sugar daddy, she met while I was away, since I'm all used up. She's gone for good. I'm at peace with that. Now I'm stuck in Ashland Nebraska till I save the funds for a new move. It wouldn't be so bad if I had friends or family anywhere in the 50 mile radius. But cause I put her first I never did build up a support group. I have a good plan. Will either go back to California or try Tacoma Washington. Just have to fix up the car and save. I'm shooting for march. Till then I'm not sure what to do with myself. I got some books from the library and the internet on my phone. Should I join a church or something? Volunteer at the library maybe. No social interaction is killing me. My job is a lost cause for friendship, I ostracized myself by defending her. And most of the people there are the kind Ive associated with on the past that drag me down, drug addicts. A new start is the best option. I don't know at my wits end. Thought this brain diarrhea being shat here may help. Bocknoi 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ai®a©ob®a Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 She's not worth all the pain and tears bud. Volunteer at an Animal Shelter there is nothing better than helping an abuse animal trust human again, I get chills everytime i finally get a pup or start wagging his tail and finally wanting to be given affection by humans again. Crossed, IveGotNoValues and Korpi 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Potato_Smuggler Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 So I spent the last Six years of my life putting the ex first. Lots of blood sweat an tears for her. She is gone for good now, I'm not taking her back and I know she isn't coming back, she has a new sugar daddy to drag down. We parted ways the first time in august 2013. We were homeless living in a tent. Funny cause that how are relationship started in 2009. Her crazy dad...get out etc. I lived next door at my aunts. I went an lived in my car with her till she graduated high school. I held a job an saved up. We moved to Nebraska. She couldnt hold a job and that resulted in money troubles and poor planning. Us back in california homeless. I'm never one to give up on someone despite all the sh*t they give me. So we parted ways in 2013. A month later she's talking to me again. I saved up an went back to Nebraska with nothing but two duffel bags an a Amtrak ticket. Things were good for a bit. Then she started lying and taking my car for weekends to visit her "grandparents". Not really, just was working on her new sugar daddy, she met while I was away, since I'm all used up. She's gone for good. I'm at peace with that. Now I'm stuck in Ashland Nebraska till I save the funds for a new move. It wouldn't be so bad if I had friends or family anywhere in the 50 mile radius. But cause I put her first I never did build up a support group. I have a good plan. Will either go back to California or try Tacoma Washington. Just have to fix up the car and save. I'm shooting for march. Till then I'm not sure what to do with myself. I got some books from the library and the internet on my phone. Should I join a church or something? Volunteer at the library maybe. No social interaction is killing me. My job is a lost cause for friendship, I ostracized myself by defending her. And most of the people there are the kind Ive associated with on the past that drag me down, drug addicts. A new start is the best option. I don't know at my wits end. Thought this brain diarrhea being shat here may help. Well, I believe it's great you've moved on, and I hope that this year will be the best year you had so far, with a fresh start. Might be tough, but just keep your head up and weather through it. There's always rainbows after rain. Crossed and IveGotNoValues 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 1, 2015 Author Share Posted January 1, 2015 Thank you. I just need to hear that positive stuff. All I really have is my mom and sister, an a few true friends sparsely located around the USA. I know it will get better. These first few weeks are a sh*tter though being broke an unable to drive till I get my car worked on. Getting a ride to work with tweakers is wearing on me. Thankfully I have the will to not drink an drug through this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trip Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 There's always rainbows after rain. Feel free to skip to 2:05 for the rainbow/rain part. Good luck Mac, life is and always will be wacky. *MURDOC*, GTA36362355 and Fonz 3 My crappy games at MyCrappyGames.com Free copy of Save The Puppies and Kittens Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 1, 2015 Author Share Posted January 1, 2015 She's not worth all the pain and tears bud. Volunteer at an Animal Shelter there is nothing better than helping an abuse animal trust human again, I get chills everytime i finally get a pup or start wagging his tail and finally wanting to be given affection by humans again. That's a good idea but that hits a painful spot too soon. She took our dog(well was hers first) but I loved him like my own. She left the fish tank though! Lol. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ai®a©ob®a Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 She's not worth all the pain and tears bud. Volunteer at an Animal Shelter there is nothing better than helping an abuse animal trust human again, I get chills everytime i finally get a pup or start wagging his tail and finally wanting to be given affection by humans again. That's a good idea but that hits a painful spot too soon. She took our dog(well was hers first) but I loved him like my own. She left the fish tank though! Lol. Just don't adopt a bird or cat Trust me the first day you enter the shelter all that pain will go away, I started going there after i had to put my two pups i had for almost 16 years down, I went there to try and find another pup for my girls and ended up staying. Been going there on the weekends since 2012 and i love it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TECHN9CiAN Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 She's not worth all the pain and tears bud. Volunteer at an Animal Shelter there is nothing better than helping an abuse animal trust human again, I get chills everytime i finally get a pup or start wagging his tail and finally wanting to be given affection by humans again. This. I went homeless over similar circumstances and heard that animal shelter would hook me up with a small trailer to call home while i volunteer during the days. Idk if this is true for all vollunteers, but it worked while i got back on my feet. But nobody is worth your pain. Focus on yourself. Good luck Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 1, 2015 Author Share Posted January 1, 2015 I'm not homeless. Was just saying I chose homelessness for the cum dumpster that was my ex. And held her weight for 6 years. I have a cheap apartment, full time job and a car. I just need to get my car fixed ( front end issues, busted tire rod) so I can start doing me. Im just having a hard time passing the time till then. A hard time not choosing to drink constantly due to health an lack of funds. I'll survive...I think...just need a few paychecks and the rest will fall into place. I'll be happy when I drive away from Nebraska and never look back. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Potato_Smuggler Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 I'm not homeless. Was just saying I chose homelessness for the cum dumpster that was my ex. And held her weight for 6 years. I have a cheap apartment, full time job and a car. I just need to get my car fixed ( front end issues, busted tire rod) so I can start doing me. Im just having a hard time passing the time till then. A hard time not choosing to drink constantly due to health an lack of funds. I'll survive...I think...just need a few paychecks and the rest will fall into place. I'll be happy when I drive away from Nebraska and never look back. If you want, maybe we can track down your ex and burn her at the stake. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 1, 2015 Author Share Posted January 1, 2015 I tried getting the 629 guys to do that...lol. I got her name and her new sugar daddy's name. And his address. Dudes 30 an lives with his parents. Like f*cking really? But hey they say revenge is not the proper path. But she did go f*ck him, then come home an f*ck me. So...dirty. that was part of the addiction. She was a dirty little whore who let me do anything. We had three ways, public sex on trains to planes to park bathrooms. It was a real good run...I knew it had to end one day. She chose the dude with a t bird and a family over the hard working hippy who gave her everything...every inch Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Potato_Smuggler Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 (edited) I tried getting the 629 guys to do that...lol. I got her name and her new sugar daddy's name. And his address. Dudes 30 an lives with his parents. Like f*cking really? But hey they say revenge is not the proper path. But she did go f*ck him, then come home an f*ck me. So...dirty. that was part of the addiction. She was a dirty little whore who let me do anything. We had three ways, public sex on trains to planes to park bathrooms. It was a real good run...I knew it had to end one day. She chose the dude with a t bird and a family over the hard working hippy who gave her everything...every inch I'm sorry for you man, but f**k your ex. She was a toxic b**ch by the looks of it, and she deserves to get hit by a car. I wish you good luck and hope your life steadily improves. Edited January 1, 2015 by Potato_Smuggler Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IveGotNoValues Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 Damn man. I hope everything gets better for you, and you can get past this all. Sh*t, maybe someday you'll be very successful and rich, and your ex will find out and then you can laugh right in her face while she's stuck with that sugar daddy loser. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
johnny_zoo Posted January 1, 2015 Share Posted January 1, 2015 (edited) Social interaction is probably good build a new support group; just mix with the right people. Edited January 1, 2015 by johnny_zoo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xanbukka Posted January 2, 2015 Share Posted January 2, 2015 To each his own, there is no (one way) fix, for this problem, though here is my three cents. When one expends their very being for another, they may as well have become an extra limb on one's body. All one can do, is take the rest, and deal from then on, when the limb gets cut off. (blanket term version) It might help you, to throw yourself at some cause, cult, religion, or organisation, and trying to over ride your brain that way...... it works for some. For some, stopping the presses, digging down deep, relearning what makes you as a person, ticks. Find out who you are, before throwing yourself into yet another situation, where again, you could just be used up, and tossed again. Many instances like that in a row, are not good at all, on your mental/psychological well being. Try new things, don't be afraid of failing, that is after all, how humans really learn anything, though few ever really admit to it. And good luck. GTA36362355 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 2, 2015 Author Share Posted January 2, 2015 Yeah that's how I'm going with it. I'm in a kind of jail due to money problems of my own creation. So I'm just buckled down waiting till next Friday. The longterm goal is to have the car tuned up an ready for a drive and at least 1500 dollars saved by spring/march. Head to the west coast, either my home state of California or somewhere about in Washington. Depends where I can find work or a lead on work. Fresher start. A lot can happen in three months, I know I'm not happy in Nebraska an miss my family. They all reside in the west. So do the few true friends I have who care to some extent about my well being. I love myself but still have some soul searching to find myself a bit more before I give love to anyone again like that. That relationship was a lot of lust and mutual drug addictions. We liked to get f*cked up a lot. Potheads at heart but sex and drugs makes a crazy combination. It was toxic, its over, I'm glad. Now I'm sick of her sh*t sitting in my apartments hallway, bout to sell that iPad thing for a tire rod. She told me to throw it all away! f*ck I ain't doing more work for her! I don't want this 15 gallon fish tank or the tropical fish in it, I'll feed em an such but..craigslist here I come! Xanbukka 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xanbukka Posted January 2, 2015 Share Posted January 2, 2015 Sounds like you have the short term figured out just fine. Thats a good sign, roll with it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandallFlagg00 Posted January 3, 2015 Share Posted January 3, 2015 Forget the girl. Cut off all contact. Don't let her back in to ruin your life. Some toxic people can be addictions. I had a nasty relationship that went on for years longer than it should have too. One day after some usual bullsh*t with her I said f*ck it. She's dead to me. That was one of the best decisions iny life. No more worrying, no more jeoush. You can let it all go if you chose to. Volunteering for something where you meet people would be good for you. Joining a church would also. I'm not religious anymore, but growing up involved in a church I know that there is a great sense of community. It would also keep the alcohol temptations at bay. If I were you I'd chose Tacoma. I go there once every other year or so. Very nice place. All the best to you OP. When she comes back(she will), don't let her back. Your brain will trick you and make you remember all the good times you had, but remember how awful she's made you feel. She's not worth being homeless, jealous, and miserable. It will only get worse. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Femme Fatale Posted January 4, 2015 Share Posted January 4, 2015 There's billions of other chicks in the world...she's nothing... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 4, 2015 Author Share Posted January 4, 2015 There's billions of other chicks in the world...she's nothing... Yes! You are 100 percent correct! I've been talking to 1% of them tonight alone. I will never take her back and I'm trading her iPad and putting the rest of her shut out by the curb. Its been a week so fuxk yes! FREEDOM AND FUN f*ck YOU JESSICA BAKER AND f*ck YOU RYAN BENTLEY YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE HELL THATS IN STORE FOR YOU! WEEEEE SAILIR JERRY THE NIGHT AWAY Femme Fatale 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Femme Fatale Posted January 4, 2015 Share Posted January 4, 2015 There's billions of other chicks in the world...she's nothing... Yes! You are 100 percent correct! I've been talking to 1% of them tonight alone. I will never take her back and I'm trading her iPad and putting the rest of her shut out by the curb. Its been a week so fuxk yes! FREEDOM AND FUN f*ck YOU JESSICA BAKER AND f*ck YOU RYAN BENTLEY YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE HELL THATS IN STORE FOR YOU! WEEEEE SAILIR JERRY THE NIGHT AWAYYES! GO DO IT HAPPY BOY! WEEEE... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 4, 2015 Author Share Posted January 4, 2015 I love gtaforums so much. Back in 03 to 06 this was the second coolest place to hangout at besides this place me an the dudes called "neshams place" where we would drink forties, smoke bleezies an jays, snort powders, roll bowls and get pie an blowjobbies. FREE LUKAS VANDERWALL! Tyler and Loch Dawg 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loch Dawg Posted January 4, 2015 Share Posted January 4, 2015 (edited) I love gtaforums so much. Back in 03 to 06 this was the second coolest place to hangout at besides this place me an the dudes called "neshams place" where we would drink forties, smoke bleezies an jays, snort powders, roll bowls and get pie an blowjobbies. FREE LUKAS VANDERWALL! God bless you Trav. Edited January 4, 2015 by Lochie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crazyeighties Posted January 4, 2015 Share Posted January 4, 2015 So I spent the last Six years of my life putting the ex first. Lots of blood sweat an tears for her. She is gone for good now, I'm not taking her back and I know she isn't coming back, she has a new sugar daddy to drag down. We parted ways the first time in august 2013. We were homeless living in a tent. Funny cause that how are relationship started in 2009. Her crazy dad...get out etc. I lived next door at my aunts. I went an lived in my car with her till she graduated high school. I held a job an saved up. We moved to Nebraska. She couldnt hold a job and that resulted in money troubles and poor planning. Us back in california homeless. I'm never one to give up on someone despite all the sh*t they give me. So we parted ways in 2013. A month later she's talking to me again. I saved up an went back to Nebraska with nothing but two duffel bags an a Amtrak ticket. Things were good for a bit. Then she started lying and taking my car for weekends to visit her "grandparents". Not really, just was working on her new sugar daddy, she met while I was away, since I'm all used up. She's gone for good. I'm at peace with that. Now I'm stuck in Ashland Nebraska till I save the funds for a new move. It wouldn't be so bad if I had friends or family anywhere in the 50 mile radius. But cause I put her first I never did build up a support group. I have a good plan. Will either go back to California or try Tacoma Washington. Just have to fix up the car and save. I'm shooting for march. Till then I'm not sure what to do with myself. I got some books from the library and the internet on my phone. Should I join a church or something? Volunteer at the library maybe. No social interaction is killing me. My job is a lost cause for friendship, I ostracized myself by defending her. And most of the people there are the kind Ive associated with on the past that drag me down, drug addicts. A new start is the best option. I don't know at my wits end. Thought this brain diarrhea being shat here may help. Well, I believe it's great you've moved on, and I hope that this year will be the best year you had so far, with a fresh start. Might be tough, but just keep your head up and weather through it. There's always rainbows after rain. What they said, the darker the night the brighter the stars. It's always darkest before the dawn Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
QuackinAColdOne Posted January 4, 2015 Share Posted January 4, 2015 So public sex you say.... Whats thia girls name?? Affalterbach 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crossed Posted January 6, 2015 Author Share Posted January 6, 2015 She looks a lot like her dad I doubt youd hit it. An the cold sores....rofl I swear on every sh*tty thing I went through in my entire life and survived, when I'm done saving money and ready to leave this sh*thole part of the country behind, I'm going to punch this dumb motherf*cker at work right in the teeth. Might even kick him in the nuts then pound his face in. Then walk the f*ck out of there and never comeback. On top of dealing with that slag bitches hurtful departure and trying to forget her, I really don't deserve this sh*t. FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCK Sorry I just want to be heard...this lonely sh*t and dbag people are getting to me tonight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Affalterbach Posted January 7, 2015 Share Posted January 7, 2015 So public sex you say.... Whats thia girls name?? She looks a lot like her dad I doubt youd hit it. He'll hit anything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Potato_Smuggler Posted January 7, 2015 Share Posted January 7, 2015 So public sex you say.... Whats thia girls name?? She looks a lot like her dad I doubt youd hit it.He'll hit anything.Anything, you say. How about a 95 year old woman? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
QuackinAColdOne Posted January 7, 2015 Share Posted January 7, 2015 So public sex you say.... Whats thia girls name?? She looks a lot like her dad I doubt youd hit it. He'll hit anything.Anything, you say. How about a 95 year old woman?If she's 95, I'm 95 Affalterbach 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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