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M4RK

Anyone in here suffer from depression?

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wiizardii

Depressed? No, not depressed.. Something much worst. Self moral desperation, is what I call it

 

 

Have you ever felt betrayed? Betrayed by something, life at most. Doesn't matter who, or even what did it. You feel down, you feel like nothing but air. Your life is empty, you have a family, they care about you, you care about them: but do you care about yourself? Do you care at what you do? Do you really even see what you do, and why you do it? For example, you have a dead end job that only pays you 10 bucks, so you take a second job, but that job doesn't help you any better. You feel betrayed, broken: mostly by the environment around you: the exact thing that caused the poison that is the self desperation. You care about everyone, and you do your BEST, for them. Wether its being a good son/daughter to your parents, respect people around you: or being an adult and providing for your family. You feel like you are failing your goal in such a way, a very bad way, a negative way. You want to change, you want to become something else, and you try your best: but you dont FAIL, instead you take that small chance and you break it. You make yourself the main priority. And you do your best for it: only to get something bad back. Maybe good? Who knows. This is something I have suffered for quiet a while, and I want to just break bad out of and do my own thing for one time, choose for myself. I hope I achieve this goal one time in my life: so I can move on with it: and die with it some day.

 

we all think about our life: wether we are desperate, depressed, or anything. That's how we as humans function. Sometimes, you just gotta be selfish.

 

 

 

A good advice for people that suffer from deppression: f*ck off. Just f*ck off, f*ck off from what you are doing. If you feel like you are down from that, or the reason from that: prioritize yourself and make yourself the more powerful subject. Sometimes, you need to be evil yourself to beat something else. Be bad for once, you can't always play Mr. nice guy. You can't run from who you are.

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kevin de santa

Sorry but you don't know what the f*ck your talking about

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LOES

Schools starting up again, depression is slowly creeping back in......

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ten-a-penny

 

 

Depressed? No, not depressed.. Something much worst. Self moral desperation, is what I call it

 

 

Have you ever felt betrayed? Betrayed by something, life at most. Doesn't matter who, or even what did it. You feel down, you feel like nothing but air. Your life is empty, you have a family, they care about you, you care about them: but do you care about yourself? Do you care at what you do? Do you really even see what you do, and why you do it? For example, you have a dead end job that only pays you 10 bucks, so you take a second job, but that job doesn't help you any better. You feel betrayed, broken: mostly by the environment around you: the exact thing that caused the poison that is the self desperation. You care about everyone, and you do your BEST, for them. Wether its being a good son/daughter to your parents, respect people around you: or being an adult and providing for your family. You feel like you are failing your goal in such a way, a very bad way, a negative way. You want to change, you want to become something else, and you try your best: but you dont FAIL, instead you take that small chance and you break it. You make yourself the main priority. And you do your best for it: only to get something bad back. Maybe good? Who knows. This is something I have suffered for quiet a while, and I want to just break bad out of and do my own thing for one time, choose for myself. I hope I achieve this goal one time in my life: so I can move on with it: and die with it some day.

 

we all think about our life: wether we are desperate, depressed, or anything. That's how we as humans function. Sometimes, you just gotta be selfish.

 

 

 

A good advice for people that suffer from deppression: f*ck off. Just f*ck off, f*ck off from what you are doing. If you feel like you are down from that, or the reason from that: prioritize yourself and make yourself the more powerful subject. Sometimes, you need to be evil yourself to beat something else. Be bad for once, you can't always play Mr. nice guy. You can't run from who you are.

 

 

This is the exact same that happens to me. Thanks for your advices!

 

Schools starting up again, depression is slowly creeping back in......

lol

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wiizardii

Sorry but you don't know what the f*ck your talking about

Me? If you are talking about me, then I do know what the f*ck I am talking about. It's not rocket science, just search your feelings and you can say it or write it anywhere when you feel like it.

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Saikou

I am bored all the time, which is depressing.

 

And then I laugh, which makes me happy, and then I get booed again, so I get "depressed", and then I laugh, week makes me happy...

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Nowdrivefaster

I have been depressed many years ago, but I got some therapy and medication. I'm still suffering from OCD and panic disorder. It's kind of part of my life and I'm used to it.

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johnny_zoo

Depressed? No, not depressed.. Something much worst. Self moral desperation, is what I call it

I think I get what youre saying... I think. Stop being a doormat I guess.

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Mr. House

I agree with Kevin de santa, that long post is incessant babble.

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wiizardii

.......... Well thanks for burying me

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Saikou

.......... Well thanks for burying me

Chill out, dude. Take a breather and just laugh at random sh*t even if people get mad at you for it, is hilarious.

 

Heheheh

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wiizardii

 

.......... Well thanks for burying me

Chill out, dude. Take a breather and just laugh at random sh*t even if people get mad at you for it, is hilarious.

 

Heheheh

 

Oh, I am sorry. I must have forgotten that this is not real life, but an internet forum where you can't exactly tell if words written in letters are a joke or not, rather when someone says it with their natural voice. I am going to laugh now:

 

 

Ha Ha Ha Ha ha. Very very very funny. :^:

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Saikou

 

 

 

.......... Well thanks for burying me

Chill out, dude. Take a breather and just laugh at random sh*t even if people get mad at you for it, is hilarious.

 

Heheheh

 

Oh, I am sorry. I must have forgotten that this is not real life, but an internet forum where you can't exactly tell if words written in letters are a joke or not, rather when someone says it with their natural voice. I am going to laugh now:

 

 

Ha Ha Ha Ha ha. Very very very funny. :^:

See? That's the spirit! :happy:
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wiizardii

 

 

 

.......... Well thanks for burying me

Chill out, dude. Take a breather and just laugh at random sh*t even if people get mad at you for it, is hilarious.

 

Heheheh

 

Oh, I am sorry. I must have forgotten that this is not real life, but an internet forum where you can't exactly tell if words written in letters are a joke or not, rather when someone says it with their natural voice. I am going to laugh now:

 

 

Ha Ha Ha Ha ha. Very very very funny. :^:

See? That's the spirit! :happy:

 

...... Dumbass

 

 

 

Now that's the spirit :)

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tonytrout

 

No. Depression is for lazy people that don't know how or don't want to deal with their life situation.

 

I used to be depressed too not too long ago. I dealt with it by realizing that most of my "problems" were imaginary or self-created. It's not possible for me to explain this in one post, and even if it was possible, you need to witness it yourself to believe me. You have more potential than you think you do, sometimes I'm amazed how well I can handle emotional situations. It all boils down to this, whatever you think is wrong in your life, there are only two types of situations: those you can deal with and those you can't. People usually have problems with the former, they usually think there's something they could change or could have changed. It's important to live in the present though, nothing ever happens in the past or the future. It all happens now. You are the one making yourself feel depressed. Do whatever you think you need to do right now and don't worry about the rest.

 

People have different types and levels of depression. For some people it is feeling low and apathetic from recent events, say, loss of a family member.

 

For some it's feeling devoid of emotion for no reason.

For some it's feeling anger towards oneself for relatively silly reason, and become apathetic because of this.

For some it's a chemical side-effect from drugs.

For some it's not being able to enjoy anything, at all.

For some it's because they block positivity from other people because of self-loathing.

 

It's not just being sad at yourself and you should just 'get over it' (something truly depressed people despise because they know they're depressed but can't do anything about it).

If someone has the type of 'depression' you described, then I don't think you can call it depression.

Relevant: http://31.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lqe0t9FOIX1qgsowro1_1280.jpg

 

 

To the first poster: Depression is for lazy people? Then explain the death of Robin Williams....

 

To the person who replied to the OP:

 

I agree - totally and completely. I'm new here but this discussion caught my eye mainly because I deal with depression and have for some time. I'm disabled with Cerebral Palsy & Hydrocephalus (have been since birth) but, thankfully, it's mild and I'm able to play several musical instruments (definitely a gift from God because my parents were told when I was born that, due to the severity of my condition, I wouldn't survive and even if I did, I wouldn't know anyone or anything or be able to do anything (basically I'd be living in a vegetative state like the late Terri Schiavo) but alot of prayers pulled me through.

 

The last decade or so has been really hard, though. All relationships I've had have failed. Came close a few years ago to getting married but - the lady called it off and now she's remarried to someone that she and I know from church which angers me even more although I knew it was going to happen.

 

The last relationship I had (mentioned above) ended on a very bad note and I fell into a deep depression - almost to the point of offing myself somehow. I figured, "This pain isn't going to stop unless I do something about it!" but - for whatever reason, I didn't. It just seems that I can't be continually happy and I don't think I know how to be happy. :(

 

Take Care,

Tony

 

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Alex Wesker

Had depression last year around the summer months. Then it crept back in last Christmas and as of now, it's just a cloud hanging over me ready to strike me down any moment. Unpredictable, to be precise.

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Saikou

...... Dumbass

 

 

 

Now that's the spirit :)

Oh man, I am so depressed now that you've called me a dumbass... :cry:
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wiizardii

 

...... Dumbass

 

 

 

Now that's the spirit :)

Oh man, I am so depressed now that you've called me a dumbass... :cry:

 

Ok

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kevin de santa

Earlier today I just started laughing about how f*cked up life really is I mean we all die in the end anyway so I can either spend that time felling sorry for myself and being worrying about how super awkward I am in public. OR i can just enjoy the few good things about life and just give all the bad things the middle finger. I think im just so socially awkward and depressed i just don't give a sh*t anyanymore

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Saikou

Earlier today I just started laughing about how f*cked up life really is I mean we all die in the end anyway so I can either spend that time felling sorry for myself and being worrying about how super awkward I am in public. OR i can just enjoy the few good things about life and just give all the bad things the middle finger. I think im just so socially awkward and depressed i just don't give a sh*t anymore

I used to think the exact same way, man. Just try your very best to do exactly what you just said. Enjoy the good things you have right now and give all of the bad things the middle finger. You never know, things might actually turn around for you and a lot of good things may happen to you, you could also try and lose some of that social awkwardness by going up to someone you trust and having a conversation with them, you should also try to start a conversation with a stranger (so long as they look friendly and are not in a bad mood or busy), you'd be surprised how many good people there may be out there. :^:
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IveGotNoValues

Earlier today I just started laughing about how f*cked up life really is I mean we all die in the end anyway so I can either spend that time felling sorry for myself and being worrying about how super awkward I am in public. OR i can just enjoy the few good things about life and just give all the bad things the middle finger. I think im just so socially awkward and depressed i just don't give a sh*t anyanymore

I was just kind of thinking the same thing earlier. You know, people take life too damn seriously. When I sit in school hour after hour ever single day I think about how much time I'm wasting, how every single moment sitting there is just one less moment I'll have to live. It really just pisses me off. People make me so angry. I have 2 or 3 actual friends and I don't plan on adding to that number. I really miss some of my lost friends, but they've moved on to greater people, and I know soon my 3 friends will probably find another group too and I'll be left in the dust, and I can't really blame them.

 

I literally almost cried last night (judge me, I don't care) thinking about how much everything changed for the worst since mid spring. I had a really good friend, he literally told me I was the only friend he needed to have and that I was his best friend and everything (I'm not used to people telling me how much they like me), he introduced me to my (now ex) girlfriend, which was the greatest thing that ever happened to me in my entire life. I couldn't thank him enough for that and she couldn't either. Everything back the was just amazing for once, like looking back on it, I'd never seen that happy side of myself before. Well since then he has sort of found a new group of friends. I haven't talked to him since June. I see him at lunch but he's with these new friends and he see's me but doesn't even bother saying hi. I gotta be honest, I think I miss him even more than I miss my ex girlfriend (and that's really saying something). Oh well, he deserves better than me anyway...This must be bad karma for me pushing away my friends from my old school back in 9th grade when I was highly depressed.

 

Sorry for the rant, I just couldn't hold it all in any longer. Anyway man, don't worry you're not alone in how you feel. I'm socially awkward as f*ck and I've just stopped giving a sh*t about being social all together. It's like I'm just so pissed off at everything, that I've just gotten to the point where I literally don't care cause sh*ts not gonna change anyway. It's almost like the anger gets cancelled out and just turns into complete and total apathy, almost like calmness...weird :/

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Payne Killer

 

 

Earlier today I just started laughing about how f*cked up life really is I mean we all die in the end anyway so I can either spend that time felling sorry for myself and being worrying about how super awkward I am in public. OR i can just enjoy the few good things about life and just give all the bad things the middle finger. I think im just so socially awkward and depressed i just don't give a sh*t anyanymore

I was just kind of thinking the same thing earlier. You know, people take life too damn seriously. When I sit in school hour after hour ever single day I think about how much time I'm wasting, how every single moment sitting there is just one less moment I'll have to live. It really just pisses me off. People make me so angry. I have 2 or 3 actual friends and I don't plan on adding to that number. I really miss some of my lost friends, but they've moved on to greater people, and I know soon my 3 friends will probably find another group too and I'll be left in the dust, and I can't really blame them.

 

I literally almost cried last night (judge me, I don't care) thinking about how much everything changed for the worst since mid spring. I had a really good friend, he literally told me I was the only friend he needed to have and that I was his best friend and everything (I'm not used to people telling me how much they like me), he introduced me to my (now ex) girlfriend, which was the greatest thing that ever happened to me in my entire life. I couldn't thank him enough for that and she couldn't either. Everything back the was just amazing for once, like looking back on it, I'd never seen that happy side of myself before. Well since then he has sort of found a new group of friends. I haven't talked to him since June. I see him at lunch but he's with these new friends and he see's me but doesn't even bother saying hi. I gotta be honest, I think I miss him even more than I miss my ex girlfriend (and that's really saying something). Oh well, he deserves better than me anyway...This must be bad karma for me pushing away my friends from my old school back in 9th grade when I was highly depressed.

 

Sorry for the rant, I just couldn't hold it all in any longer. Anyway man, don't worry you're not alone in how you feel. I'm socially awkward as f*ck and I've just stopped giving a sh*t about being social all together. It's like I'm just so pissed off at everything, that I've just gotten to the point where I literally don't care cause sh*ts not gonna change anyway. It's almost like the anger gets cancelled out and just turns into complete and total apathy, almost like calmness...weird :/

If I knew you in real life, we would make great friends. I would never stab someone in the back just to leave them alone. That's wrong.
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IveGotNoValues

 

If I knew you in real life, we would make great friends. I would never stab someone in the back just to leave them alone. That's wrong.

 

I wish there could somehow just be a meet up for everyone on these forums. Everyone on here's amazing, unlike the fake plastic people plaguing my town. Thanks man :)

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LOES

 

If I knew you in real life, we would make great friends. I would never stab someone in the back just to leave them alone. That's wrong.

 

I wish there could somehow just be a meet up for everyone on these forums. Everyone on here's amazing, unlike the fake plastic people plaguing my town. Thanks man :)

Yep man the feeling you get when ur "friend" backstabs you. Depressing as fu*k

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hvcciookay

Been going through so many hurdles all summer. I needed to order a Birth Certificate last week and UPS being amazing, tried to delivered it hours past the scheduled arrival time. Didn't help that it needed to be signed off. Had to trek to the downtown office afterwork and litteraly left it on the tram a hour later. Didn't realize it till this morning. Usually i look back when i get up, but this guy sat down next to me and rode until i got off even though there was a seat open in front of us. I hate being close to people, so my main focus was to get out of dodge. We both got off together, so i know he didn't take it. Hopefully it's at lost and found someplace. If it was free, i wouldn't care, but i went overdraft in my account by 60 bucks to get it.

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Been going through so many hurdles all summer. I needed to order a Birth Certificate last week and UPS being amazing, tried to delivered it hours past the scheduled arrival time. Didn't help that it needed to be signed off. Had to trek to the downtown office afterwork and litteraly left it on the tram a hour later. Didn't realize it till this morning. Usually i look back when i get up, but this guy sat down next to me and rode until i got off even though there was a seat open in front of us. I hate being close to people, so my main focus was to get out of dodge. We both got off together, so i know he didn't take it. Hopefully it's at lost and found someplace. If it was free, i wouldn't care, but i went overdraft in my account by 60 bucks to get it.

Having a sh*t day/few weeks isn't depression.

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dudclub55

 

 

If I knew you in real life, we would make great friends. I would never stab someone in the back just to leave them alone. That's wrong.

 

I wish there could somehow just be a meet up for everyone on these forums. Everyone on here's amazing, unlike the fake plastic people plaguing my town. Thanks man :)

 

 

Everyone?

90% of the people in the online section are absolute jerk offs that you should stay away from.

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Payne Killer

 

 

 

If I knew you in real life, we would make great friends. I would never stab someone in the back just to leave them alone. That's wrong.

 

I wish there could somehow just be a meet up for everyone on these forums. Everyone on here's amazing, unlike the fake plastic people plaguing my town. Thanks man :)

 

 

Everyone?

90% of the people in the online section are absolute jerk offs that you should stay away from.

 

Im sure no real GTA fan gives a sh*t about gta sh*tline.

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dudclub55

it's not about whether they care about Online or not.

These people are just outright horrible.

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Payne Killer

it's not about whether they care about Online or not.

These people are just outright horrible.

yeah your right, just a bunch of 12yr old kids who like chromed cars and pink weapons. :facedesk:

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