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M4RK

Anyone in here suffer from depression?

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dante財閥

No. Depression is for lazy people that don't know how or don't want to deal with their life situation.

 

I used to be depressed too not too long ago. I dealt with it by realizing that most of my "problems" were imaginary or self-created. It's not possible for me to explain this in one post, and even if it was possible, you need to witness it yourself to believe me. You have more potential than you think you do, sometimes I'm amazed how well I can handle emotional situations. It all boils down to this, whatever you think is wrong in your life, there are only two types of situations: those you can deal with and those you can't. People usually have problems with the former, they usually think there's something they could change or could have changed. It's important to live in the present though, nothing ever happens in the past or the future. It all happens now. You are the one making yourself feel depressed. Do whatever you think you need to do right now and don't worry about the rest.

This is probably one of the worst posts I think I've ever seen on the internet. I'm not even exaggerating.

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Daz

You guys are mentally ill ?

Well you are in a topic about depression.

 

Just make sure that the books on the shelf don't pass their use by date and that the jam does not drip from the corners of them and we won't have a problem.

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MarshalMoo

 

You guys are mentally ill ?

Well you are in a topic about depression.

 

Thanks for pointing that out, Sherlock.

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Chm0

 

 

You guys are mentally ill ?

Well you are in a topic about depression.

 

Thanks for pointing that out, Sherlock.

 

 

Stupid question, stupid answer.

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Well simple solution...

get a companion like a cat or a dog!

Maybe go for a walk everyday in a nearby quiet forest or something

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Audiophile

I'm actually going through a very depressive period right now. A lot of anxiety, too. I worry about f*cking up, letting people down, what people think of me. I try too much to please other people.

 

Two months ago I finally got out of it, out after feeling down for a very long time. I don't like to burden people with my problems, I don't like to complain and I certainly do not like feeling sorry for myself. If I can deal with my problem, I do. But there are some I cannot deal with. While I have not been diagnosed with anything and I will not self-diagnose, my father did have bipolar disorder and committed suicide a few years ago. It's been tough for me.

 

Anyway, two months ago I was finally out of what seemed like the longest period of time I had ever been "depressed". I have a job I am starting in June, a good one that will give me legal experience. I have finished 3 years of my 4 year degree. I've become more social, not as much as I used to be in high school but I force myself to be more social. People let me down. They disappoint me. But I let it go because it's important to have people in your life and I do not like to hold grudges.

 

I have tried but in the past few weeks I have slipped into a serious depression again. I do not know what triggered it but I am feeling so down, tired. I really don't feel like doing anything but I still do because giving in to it won't make it better. Yeah, I have a dog and that helps a lot.

 

Some of you may call me "lel phaggot, be a man" but I have cried recently. A lot, on my own, without others knowing. I use music as an outlet, it's really the only thing that helps me "get away" and feel a little better. I've been listening to a lot of Michael Jackson lately. I don't generally listen to "pop" music and am into rock etc but I will listen to anything as long as it sounds good and MJ was great. But in a way, that makes me sad because he's gone and he went through his whole life being treated like sh*t. Don't confuse that with the reason for my depression or contributing to it. It's not. But I guess it just goes to show that when you're one of these states, the smallest thing can help bring you down or really make you think about life. I don't know why I shared that because I'm sure most people will think "lel phaggot" but meh.

 

I hope this passes soon. I won't give up, I do my best to build a better life for myself and go on with what I have to do. But sometimes I feel so alone because I don't really have anyone in real life that I can unload on or vent. I socialize with people but it's not the "real" me, if that makes sense. I have tried in the past and was met with "you have nothing to be depressed about", "get over it", "you're doing it to yourself", "why don't you try being a starving child in Africa, then you will know how good you have it" etc. Things like that. I guess it's made me go into myself a lot and not try to reach out to others with my real feelings. We all feel down sometimes but I feel like this is more than that. It's constant. Yeah, I don't have it as bad as some people do but it is my life and those are my feelings. I cannot help it or just make them go away. I wish I could. That would make life so much easier. I don't want to feel this way and I have done my best to get out of it. Yet here we are.

 

Sorry for the long post. I know it's tl;dr for most people.

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dante財閥

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Well simple solution...

get a companion like a cat or a dog!

Maybe go for a walk everyday in a nearby quiet forest or something

Holy f*ck. Why didn't I think of this before? I feel bloody brilliant! I hope you're up for the nobel prize or something. If you aren't, I'm writing a PERSONAL letter of recommendation! I hate to be so forward, but have you considered a career in psychiatry?

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Fuzzknuckles

Be careful, it's easy to confuse depression with just feeling a bit bummed out.

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GTA36362355

Used to be depressed before it got boring.

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dante財閥

Used to be depressed before it got boring.

I'm sorry to break this to you but I don't think you were actually suffering from depression.

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PhilSteven7

I do suffer from bipolar depression, and I've only started to come to terms and admit that I am Ill to friends and family in the last couple of months. I am at a stupid states where I need to be on medication to help my mood as I've tried and failed to kill myself a few times already.

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GTA36362355

 

 

 

 

Used to be depressed before it got boring.

 

I'm sorry to break this to you but I don't think you were actually suffering from depression.Don't be sorry, you aren't breaking anything to me, you know, because as you said, it's what you think/don't think! :p

 

Being depressed can really get boring after a few months because you don't have fun, you don't think about things you should think about, you feel like a mess all the time, you stop caring about how f*cked up you look, you keep smoking cigarettes, you drink to get f*cked, you lose body weight, you spoil relations that were once healthy and in the end, you find solace in the fact that in a week, you will leave this sh*t behind and move to a new city and a new life. That's when you start partying and that's how you forget about this f*cking disease called depression.

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dante財閥

 

 

 

Used to be depressed before it got boring.

I'm sorry to break this to you but I don't think you were actually suffering from depression.
Don't be sorry, you aren't breaking anything to me, you know, because as you said, it's what you think/don't think! :p

 

Being depressed can really get boring after a few months because you don't have fun, you don't think about things you should think about, you feel like a mess all the time, you stop caring about how f*cked up you look, you keep smoking cigarettes, you drink to get f*cked, you lose body weight, you spoil relations that were once healthy and in the end, you find solace in the fact that in a week, you will leave this sh*t behind and move to a new city and a new life. That's when you start partying and that's how you forget about this f*cking disease called depression.

 

I genuinely can't figure out whether you are being serious or not.

 

Look. You never suffered from depression. You don't know what depression is, clearly. If you think it is something that can be left behind by moving to a new city I have some troubling news for you.

 

It might be that you felt a bit sh*tty about some stuff and a change of scenery helped you out. That's cool man. I'm glad for you. But don't come into a topic about mental health and depression and trivialise the issue by claiming its something you got 'bored of' and helped yourself with. Because it just doesn't work that way. For people who are medicated with depression or anxiety related illnesses going to a 'new city' and 'new life' is likely to have the opposite effect of what you claim cured your 'depression'.

 

I know you are just trying to be nice, and I think at heart everyone who is being dismissive of depression and its related ailments are probably good people. But this is something I say to everyone: if you don't know what you are talking about, don't comment. You wouldn't catch me in a thread talking about the ramifications of being raped, or perhaps the issue of PTSD that some people face after a specific event because it doesn't apply to me. I know nothing about these things. Just like you know nothing about depression.

 

I'm not trying to be a dick, but please be respectful of the condition. Yours and other peoples posts are really insulting and just ignorant to be honest, and they aren't helping anybody.

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Trinette

So the last time I posted in this topic was back in October. Exactly one month after that I fell back into depression and I've been fighting with it for the past 7 months. The job I got back in December helps me out a bit, but sometimes it can be very vigorous if I start having depressing thoughts during work. It's as though the hours become days and the greatest amount of dread I could imagine sticks with me and my thoughts for the day.

 

Relationships with close friends started to fall apart during this time for reasons as well. One of my best friends, who has bipolar disorder, has argued with me a lot and one day our conflicting personalities set us apart and that has been a huge blow to my self esteem and happiness. My other close friend I lost is a more complicated story as to how we stopped talking and I'll leave it at that. The people that have been so close to me and supportive are almost all gone at this point and it's getting a little scary.

 

I've been having problems at my parents house as well for ages which wasn't helping either so I decided to move out last week with a couple of people in a better part of my town. I figured that it would help out, which it has, but new problems have come about with it that I don't feel so comfortable about sharing so I'll leave it at that. I'm now living with pretty much my only close friend left and I have this fear that my depression or anything related will set us apart so I've been worrying too much to myself about how that will go.

 

My anxiety and panic attacks have increased by a ton since moving out and I seem to have them a lot more often than I'd like. This is usual for me when I'm thrown back into depression so it's nothing special. My desire to smoke more is much stronger now because it seems like the only instant relief to a panic or anxiety attack if I have one so I've been chain smoking off and on for the past week. It really sucks.

 

I don't really have any plans on how I'm going to make things better besides waiting it out. I go to therapy tomorrow and it looks like I'll be going with a mind full of issues unlike most of the other times I go in where I feel sort of blank the day/hour before my session and can't talk to my therapist about significant issues I'm facing in great detail because I'm too riddled with anxiety to pinpoint my smaller issues efficiently first.

 

At this point I've been rambling on too long so I'm just going to end this post here. It feels good seeing my thoughts displayed through text as opposed to floating around in my head. :ph34r::ph34r:

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Mr. Scratch

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Sounds like you need to get yourself a few beers and go fishing up in one them lakes 'round there. Best therapy there is.

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Shmoopy

Depression is bad , anxiety is worst , especially the walking anxiety disorder , I'm often anxious while walking in public places , not the really crowded ones but the places where you face a wide path in front and you get the feeling that you are the center of attention , like every one is staring at you talking sh*t about you ,sometimes , I hear some whispers while walking alone , a whisper of insult , it is that realistic that it makes me turn left and right looking for the person who insulted me , but i figure out that it is just my imagination ( maybe ). Maybe all this anxiety/depression thing is a self-esteem matter , I dont know ...

 

 

Here is the appropriate theme for this thread:

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GTA36362355

 

 

 

 

 

 

Used to be depressed before it got boring.

 

I'm sorry to break this to you but I don't think you were actually suffering from depression.
Don't be sorry, you aren't breaking anything to me, you know, because as you said, it's what you think/don't think! :p

Being depressed can really get boring after a few months because you don't have fun, you don't think about things you should think about, you feel like a mess all the time, you stop caring about how f*cked up you look, you keep smoking cigarettes, you drink to get f*cked, you lose body weight, you spoil relations that were once healthy and in the end, you find solace in the fact that in a week, you will leave this sh*t behind and move to a new city and a new life. That's when you start partying and that's how you forget about this f*cking disease called depression.

 

I genuinely can't figure out whether you are being serious or not.

 

Look. You never suffered from depression. You don't know what depression is, clearly. If you think it is something that can be left behind by moving to a new city I have some troubling news for you.

 

It might be that you felt a bit sh*tty about some stuff and a change of scenery helped you out. That's cool man. I'm glad for you. But don't come into a topic about mental health and depression and trivialise the issue by claiming its something you got 'bored of' and helped yourself with. Because it just doesn't work that way. For people who are medicated with depression or anxiety related illnesses going to a 'new city' and 'new life' is likely to have the opposite effect of what you claim cured your 'depression'.

 

I know you are just trying to be nice, and I think at heart everyone who is being dismissive of depression and its related ailments are probably good people. But this is something I say to everyone: if you don't know what you are talking about, don't comment. You wouldn't catch me in a thread talking about the ramifications of being raped, or perhaps the issue of PTSD that some people face after a specific event because it doesn't apply to me. I know nothing about these things. Just like you know nothing about depression.

 

I'm not trying to be a dick, but please be respectful of the condition. Yours and other peoples posts are really insulting and just ignorant to be honest, and they aren't helping anybody.

I didn't mean to offend anyone here, Geth. I was only sharing my experience with what I felt was depression. I posted what I felt because I could relate with the theme of this thread, which is depression.

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lt_yao

I used to. But to be fair, I'm not joking either, I've gotten over it by drinking ridiculous amounts of alcohol.

Now I've got a job as a web designer / developer, and am drinking with my boss weekly.

 

Best way to deal with depression for me was to hate everyone. And honestly, most of that hatred was spot on.

 

Bunch of knobers you.

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gtamann123

I've come to the conclusion that my depression is seasonal. Now that summer is here I am a completely different person than I was in the winter with very few traces of depression. Quite crazy how weather can do that.

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HOW'S ANNIE?

I can't say for sure since I've been too affraid to go to the doctor to get proerly diagnosed, but I would say chances are yes. Pretty much every morning, until right up till when I go to bed I feel like absolute sh*t. I have problems socialising with people too, I tend to feel just too scared to open my mouth when in large groups.

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DeafMetal

Gah apparently I am. Just had a breakdown. Haven't slept in two days... Too much sh*t to do.

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Audiophile

I feel like I am in the midst of a breakdown. There's something inside me that is going from a silent whisper into a scream. I can feel it, bros.

 

Thursday I am going off to work just for some experience before I head to my, I guess, "legit" job in mid-June. So I am still keeping busy. I honestly do not know how I will pull this off because it's a 6 a.m. wake up to get there by 7 a.m. My sleep cycle is all f*cked and over the place because I simply cannot fall asleep. I can get 3 hours of sleep the night before yet once 9-10 p.m. hits I am wide awake. It's like my body clock is all messed up and night is day to me. Or maybe it's insomnia, who knows. I do not want to self-diagnose. I can't fall asleep until 4 a.m. best case, 5-6 a.m. worst case. I wake up at 10:45 a.m. with an alarm every day while I don't have work. I only slept in maybe the past 2 days because I could allow myself to.

 

But for the past week, I am serious, I have never felt this bad before. There's literally an ache in my heart and in the pit of my stomach. Constantly sad. No motivation. Can't sleep.

 

I woke up this morning, the first feeling I had was of intense dread and anxiety. I forced myself to get up, took a shower, shaved, made breakfast. Exercised. Went outside with my dog. Actually met an old friend from high school that I hadn't seen in a year. Called a contact at a property management firm to ask if coming in this Thursday or Friday would be fine, told me no problem come in Thursday.

 

Still here I am. Feel so dreadful. Anxious. Sad. There's like a twinge in my heart that I am missing something or someone. I don't quite know how to explain it without sounding like an even bigger "lel phaggot" than I already do sound like. I mean, GTAF isn't exactly a place where people share their deepest feels and get support in return.

 

The best part of my day is that moment after you wake up. That moment, those few seconds, where you don't know who you are, don't remember anything. And then the feels come back and the memories. It all goes downhill from there, bros.

 

Never would I have thought two months ago when I finally got out of my depressed hole that I would be back in it now and the worst I've ever felt. I have literally never felt this bad before, it worries me. I am not suicidal or anything but I have no desire or motivation to live despite trying and putting myself out there.

 

Wat do?

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universetwisters

So I was talking to my buddy and she just dissapears and then I start thinking about my ex girlfriend, for f*ck sake. I was doing so well too.

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GTA36362355

I feel like I am in the midst of a breakdown. There's something inside me that is going from a silent whisper into a scream. I can feel it, bros.

 

Thursday I am going off to work just for some experience before I head to my, I guess, "legit" job in mid-June. So I am still keeping busy. I honestly do not know how I will pull this off because it's a 6 a.m. wake up to get there by 7 a.m. My sleep cycle is all f*cked and over the place because I simply cannot fall asleep. I can get 3 hours of sleep the night before yet once 9-10 p.m. hits I am wide awake. It's like my body clock is all messed up and night is day to me. Or maybe it's insomnia, who knows. I do not want to self-diagnose. I can't fall asleep until 4 a.m. best case, 5-6 a.m. worst case. I wake up at 10:45 a.m. with an alarm every day while I don't have work. I only slept in maybe the past 2 days because I could allow myself to.

 

But for the past week, I am serious, I have never felt this bad before. There's literally an ache in my heart and in the pit of my stomach. Constantly sad. No motivation. Can't sleep.

 

I woke up this morning, the first feeling I had was of intense dread and anxiety. I forced myself to get up, took a shower, shaved, made breakfast. Exercised. Went outside with my dog. Actually met an old friend from high school that I hadn't seen in a year. Called a contact at a property management firm to ask if coming in this Thursday or Friday would be fine, told me no problem come in Thursday.

 

Still here I am. Feel so dreadful. Anxious. Sad. There's like a twinge in my heart that I am missing something or someone. I don't quite know how to explain it without sounding like an even bigger "lel phaggot" than I already do sound like. I mean, GTAF isn't exactly a place where people share their deepest feels and get support in return.

 

The best part of my day is that moment after you wake up. That moment, those few seconds, where you don't know who you are, don't remember anything. And then the feels come back and the memories. It all goes downhill from there, bros.

 

Never would I have thought two months ago when I finally got out of my depressed hole that I would be back in it now and the worst I've ever felt. I have literally never felt this bad before, it worries me. I am not suicidal or anything but I have no desire or motivation to live despite trying and putting myself out there.

 

Wat do?

 

I don't know, man. I was exactly in the same situation not too long ago and for a very long time. I can definitely relate to those morning vibes and the sleepless nights. The reasons that made me upset are still standing there but somehow I've hardened my shell. I might still be upset inside but I've stopped giving it the importance it demands from me, forcefully perhaps but that's how it is going for me. I can only hope that it gets better for you as time passes. Good luck, friend.

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DestaliusDark

I feel like I am in the midst of a breakdown. There's something inside me that is going from a silent whisper into a scream. I can feel it, bros.

 

Thursday I am going off to work just for some experience before I head to my, I guess, "legit" job in mid-June. So I am still keeping busy. I honestly do not know how I will pull this off because it's a 6 a.m. wake up to get there by 7 a.m. My sleep cycle is all f*cked and over the place because I simply cannot fall asleep. I can get 3 hours of sleep the night before yet once 9-10 p.m. hits I am wide awake. It's like my body clock is all messed up and night is day to me. Or maybe it's insomnia, who knows. I do not want to self-diagnose. I can't fall asleep until 4 a.m. best case, 5-6 a.m. worst case. I wake up at 10:45 a.m. with an alarm every day while I don't have work. I only slept in maybe the past 2 days because I could allow myself to.

 

But for the past week, I am serious, I have never felt this bad before. There's literally an ache in my heart and in the pit of my stomach. Constantly sad. No motivation. Can't sleep.

 

I woke up this morning, the first feeling I had was of intense dread and anxiety. I forced myself to get up, took a shower, shaved, made breakfast. Exercised. Went outside with my dog. Actually met an old friend from high school that I hadn't seen in a year. Called a contact at a property management firm to ask if coming in this Thursday or Friday would be fine, told me no problem come in Thursday.

 

Still here I am. Feel so dreadful. Anxious. Sad. There's like a twinge in my heart that I am missing something or someone. I don't quite know how to explain it without sounding like an even bigger "lel phaggot" than I already do sound like. I mean, GTAF isn't exactly a place where people share their deepest feels and get support in return.

 

The best part of my day is that moment after you wake up. That moment, those few seconds, where you don't know who you are, don't remember anything. And then the feels come back and the memories. It all goes downhill from there, bros.

 

Never would I have thought two months ago when I finally got out of my depressed hole that I would be back in it now and the worst I've ever felt. I have literally never felt this bad before, it worries me. I am not suicidal or anything but I have no desire or motivation to live despite trying and putting myself out there.

 

Wat do?

 

Back in January i had the exact same feeling for little over a week

Even though you might be a grown adult male, crying when feeling like this helps a lot.

 

If you keep feeling like this and it gets worse there will be a moment where you just sit down and completely break down

after that moment you might feel a bit more refreshed, and that is the moment that you restart and start surrounding yourself again with more things that make you positive.

 

Your depression has literally become an addiction to your body by this point, keep that in mind

Thats how your body works, if you always feel happy you will become addicted to happiness, you will not be conscious of it but your brain will keep sending signals to the body that you have to feel happy

 

You need to learn that depression is something purely mental and you can with a lot of will break it

Each time you feel awful, just drop it, it is possible, start thinking about other things. Just be like "Eh whatever".

I know it sounds stupid and hard, but i did this and it helped in some way, months ago i had terrible fear of the future up to the point where i would sit on the floor and just not do anything

I still am scared, and i still have a depression but i don't think as much about it anymore.

 

Also, remind yourself that you should take it easy, but don't use your depression as an excuse to make yourself feel better about not doing things

Depression is something very personal and hard, but i recommend talking to someone about it as well, if you keep it locked up inside you will go crazy

 

I'm bad at helping people with depression, even though i have it myself

Another tip of advice, don't start drinking too much alcohol, it only gets worse from there

And for some reason, weed has helped me cope with my depression.

 

I wish you best of luck man, sorry if i wasn't much help

But i hope you feel better soon, you can get better.

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Twilight Sky

I'm the all-time career leader in being depressed.

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Mr. Scratch

So I was talking to my buddy and she just dissapears and then I start thinking about my ex girlfriend, for f*ck sake. I was doing so well too.

How'd that happen?

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SoftTouch

Yep. I have depression. Although for no freaking reason. So idk whats up with that.

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Xavierr

I'm on Venlafaxine , aside from the daily headaches , it works pretty well :^:

Yep. I have depression. Although for no freaking reason. So idk whats up with that.

It could be genetic.

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RiaJay21

Technically, yes. I don't think depression is something you can ever entirely 'recover' from. However, I like to think of it that I've found an efficient way of managing my depression.

 

For me, I do think it's genetic. On my mom's side, my grandmother had a degree of anxiety related problems (most notably, she became severely agoraphobic). My mom as well, has suffered with depression for as long as I've been aware of it - when I was quite young, I remember, she used to cut and pretend that the cuts were the result of kitchen accidents. Apparently, it got to the point where my dad threatened to take me and my brother (my sister wasn't born yet) away from her if she didn't stop or get help. But I didn't know about this until much later.

 

Now, this is starting to read like some warped biography. I guess I'm just trying to map it all out here. I'm trying not to be melodramatic, but ... heh. Well.

 

 

I was bullied quite badly in school, which I think was the 'trigger', I guess. Of course, that affected the way I felt about myself, and in a lot of ways, it has always stemmed from the fact that I used to have such a low sense of self worth. I remember always feeling as though nobody would miss me if I were to die. And, of course, I became very anxious about going to school every day, so tried to avoid it as much as possible. I'd continue to contemplate what things would be like if I wasn't around. My dad ... has also always had a bit of a temper. A lot of a temper. Probably due to other stresses, such as money, small things could set him off, and so, I was afraid of what would happen if I ever did this. Whenever he'd lose his temper, I'd do one of two things - retreat into my room, cry and cut, or lose my own temper quite badly and lash out.

 

As I got older, though, I'd often find that I'd go through phases of failing to be enthused by anything - I'd just sit in my room, with no real motivation to do anything, just thinking, and thinking hurt because I'd think about all the things the kids at school had put me through. I got into a strange relationship when I was 14, and in retrospect, it wasn't healthy; he'd put me down in small ways, and I'd take it, because it got to a point where the idea of not being in a relationship with him was more than I could take. After the relationship ended, I, of course, contemplated killing myself - which was childish, to do it over a relationship, but it just reinforced the idea that I was worth absolutely nothing - but I also became increasingly angry, to the point where I'd start doing the same things as my dad had done. Small things would set me off. I'd take out my frustrations on my brother and sister. Then, I'd feel bad about it and harm myself for what I'd done.

 

 

Things hit their all time low earlier last year. I'd been in and out of work since I finished college, having chosen not to go to University due to the cost, due to lacking any real direction, and also because I didn't trust myself to move away from home. I felt like going away to Uni would finish me off. I was struggling to find work, living on benefits, had no real direction in my life (I had ideas, but struggled to motivate myself). I was just ... existing. I felt worthless and failed to find enjoyment in anything I usually enjoyed - my life was just this empty void that I couldn't seem to fill. My anger was bubbling over, and whenever I lost my temper, I'd retreat to cutting myself to try and exorcise some of the anger. I went to the GP about it, eventually, and was put on Citalopram, put in touch with a therapist, really, really tried to get my life back on track.

 

I stopped seeing the therapist after about 5 sessions and stopped taking the pills around June. The only thing, honest to god, that seems to have worked, is finding a job. But, the thing is, it's not as though I'm making a lot of money. It's not as though I'm working every day of the week (okay, so previously, I have been, things have slowed down now). But, I'm surrounded by people who constantly remind me that I am worth something, that my place as a part of a team is valued, and, hell, that I'm doing something right. Middle of the year, I decided that I did have to let go of the past and stop using it as an excuse for all the things I couldn't do.

 

I haven't had suicidal thoughts in about a year and a half. I haven't cut in just under that. I get stressed out about money, about managing my time, but for the first time since I was probably about six years old, I'm actually happy. Still as cynical and jaded as I ever have been ... but I'm happy.

 

Cue heartwarming music and a big 'aww' from the audience.[/sarcasm]

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