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M4RK

Anyone in here suffer from depression?

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gtamann123

For me the biggest thing that's making me depressed is my realization that I will be alone forever. After my parents pass away I will have literally no one. I'm 22 years old and never had a "girlfriend" I've only had sex maybe a total of 15 time with 4 different girls but never had a girlfriend that lasted any longer than about 3 weeks and even then I'm pretty sure they were just using me for easy sex until they found another guy they were actually interested in. And I'm just now coming to the conclusion that I'm going to be single like this forever because I simply don't have a good enough personality to keep a woman interested in me. Which make a me incredibly sad because ever since I was a little kid I've kind of dreamed of having a family one day because my parents hated each other I never got to experience what it's like to have a loving nuclear family.

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Irish45455

My depression and other mental issues stem from 12 years of physical and mental abuse from my egg donor (I don't say mother because she has never been a mother in the normal sense and most of the time acted as an unwilling guardian), some heinous sh*t that happened for two years (you can probably guess what it was) and seeing the man who did it out of prison after only four years inside, and half a dozen failed relationships that made me realize that love isn't achievable. Every once in a while you meet someone who just doesn't belong. They don't fit in, and they don't think like everyone else. That's me. I've only met one other person like that and it sucks that her and I can't be together. I've been told I could go on disability due to the possibility of having PTSD from my egg donor's abuse but everyone else is saying it's a cheap way out, that I'd just be some welfare queen too lazy to work and that's not even the case. I don't have a will to live, at all. The whole seeing a therapist thing is just to hopefully get on disability because I'm having no luck at all with my job search. Roommate's parents are crawling up my ass about it, being all passive aggressive, saying sh*t like, "I gave up hope. He'll never have a job. When is (my name) starting his new job? Oh, you mean he doesn't have one? I would have never known! It's not like he stays home all day, oh wait... He does!" and it's to the point where I feel a mental breakdown on the horizon. I just want to cease to exist. Just wither away into dust that gets carried away by the wind, never to feel inadequate, or hurt, or angry ever again.

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Murdick

@Irish: Don't bother with going to see a therapist. For the most part they're a waste of money ans time. Most people come out either the same they were before they went to therapy or even worse in some instances. I went to therapy when I was in middle school and after about 2 years of it the doctor basically cancelled me as a patient and told my mom "there's nothing I can do to make him feel better about himself, I've literally tried everything" so basically after she had billed my parents for 2 years I had come out exactly the same way I was before. What a joke lol

Don't knock something just because it didn't work for you. Would you tell a sucidal person to not seek therapy because "it's a waste of time and they'll kill thenselves anyway?" Therapy is there for the mentally unstable, but silly people who feel bad about themselves take advantage of that and when it "doesn't work" it's not because the therapist was a failure, it's because said patients refuses to see past the end of their nose and is feeling oh so sorry for themselves.

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gtamann123

 

@Irish: Don't bother with going to see a therapist. For the most part they're a waste of money ans time. Most people come out either the same they were before they went to therapy or even worse in some instances. I went to therapy when I was in middle school and after about 2 years of it the doctor basically cancelled me as a patient and told my mom "there's nothing I can do to make him feel better about himself, I've literally tried everything" so basically after she had billed my parents for 2 years I had come out exactly the same way I was before. What a joke lol

Don't knock something just because it didn't work for you. Would you tell a sucidal person to not seek therapy because "it's a waste of time and they'll kill thenselves anyway?" Therapy is there for the mentally unstable, but silly people who feel bad about themselves take advantage of that and when it "doesn't work" it's not because the therapist was a failure, it's because said patients refuses to see past the end of their nose and is feeling oh so sorry for themselves.

Fixing your depression requires fixing the external issues that cause your depression and self hatred. And therapist can't do that.

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Khephera

Fixing your depression requires fixing the external issues that cause your depression and self hatred. And therapist can't do that.

The guy there, is that you? I mean you've posted that photo in the Member Photos thread.

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And you've said on the previous page of this thread that you're one of the "ugliest human beings alive". If that is you, you have some serious issues with your self-perception. You're not ugly at all, you do even look above average... so much for "external issues". Genuine question: how many therapists have you consulted?

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gtamann123

Yes that's me. But attractiveness is a relative thing. Where I live most men in their early 20s are 6'4"+ have the face of a male model and the body of a pro athlete. I would say that in my geographic area I'm in the bottom 5% of physical attractiveness.

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Coin

Ignore anyone who says therapists are a waste of time &/or money.

 

Therapists aren't silver bullets and do require the individual to come to the table a little, but if it isn't working out with one, then it's better to shop around rather than just knocking the idea on its head entirely. Not every therapist is the same; some might be content to let you lay down on a couch for 60 minutes once per week and let you talk the whole time, others might be more proactive etc.

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Pyrrhic

Ignore anyone who says therapists are a waste of time &/or money.

 

Therapists aren't silver bullets and do require the individual to come to the table a little, but if it isn't working out with one, then it's better to shop around rather than just knocking the idea on its head entirely. Not every therapist is the same; some might be content to let you lay down on a couch for 60 minutes once per week and let you talk the whole time, others might be more proactive etc.

 

Couldn't agree more with this, seriously. It's way better to just ride it out, even if you feel like it's a waste of time for however long. I had some problems, got sent to one and thought it was terrible and came out of it feeling as though it was the biggest waste of an afternoon. Probably didn't help that I was a bratty little f*cking edgelord too. I learned over time that the problem was that I was going into therapy under the presumption that it wasn't going to do anything, and so I would leave the room no different a person to when I walked in. Going in with an open mind solves a lot of the issues people seem to have when disassociating themselves from psychologists or therapists.

 

No matter how much you think you're playing the therapist, they're way smarter than you. After a few months of hit-and-miss jumping all over the place with psychologists I finally got to one that told it like it was, which evidently was what I needed. All the prior ones I tried I remember flat out lying to them on multiple occasions because I didn't give a sh*t what they had to say or how they were going to try change me, because I guess I thought I was way above them, but this one f*cking knew me better than I did.

 

Anyway, mad props to her, she sorted out a lot of the issues that had been culminating over many years. I took a step back from everything (the internet, sh*tty 'friends', deliberately causing anxiety) and things slowly started going smoother bit by bit. Things aren't great at the moment and I've started feeling certain components of that time coming back, but it's definitely an improvement on the kind of person I was beforehand.

 

But yeah, if anyone's reading this and is weighing up whether seeing a psychologist or therapist would be even slightly beneficial then I can certainly attest to it. As JZFB said, rather than writing the whole idea of it off before even trying, take your time to find the right one who will suit your needs and do the best for you. Hopefully it's sooner rather than later, but you'll see improvements either way.

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Mister Pink

I feel pretty sad today. Just from the stress of managing four different crops. Too many 14+ hour days. An the fact that all this hard work could go to shot an mean nothing if stuff don't make it to harvest.

 

Just stretched very thin, an been in need of female companionship for three years an counting.

 

I have no pretty ladies to hold me an stroke my hair at the end of a hard day. So I hold my dog an pet her to sorta regain my balance an fend off self destructive thoughts. An alot of cannabis an kratom consumption. Prolly to much.

 

Pets are amazing help to get through difficult days. It's also hard when you go through a long spell of not having the right companionship for so long. I know how it feels. It can almost make you feel less valued as a person. But don't see no having a partner as a reflection of you as a person. Because it's not. It's great you are working and keeping active. It's hard to fend off self-destructive thoughts but I find mindfulness is the answer to that. If you are not aware of mindfulness, please look in to it. You'll be surprised how you can stop your mind from meandering down negative valleys of thought. Those thoughts turn in to feelings and the feelings are real. It doesn't have to be like that.

 

Also, cutting out cannabis is a good step. You'll be surprised how much you wont miss it one day when the panic, introversion and negative feelings go away. I was big smoker among every other thing under the sun and have cut it all out my life. Feeling much fresher now in my mind. Everything is a bit more clear. What I lack now is exercise. My mind has been healing but now I need to treat my body better.

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Murdick

 

 

@Irish: Don't bother with going to see a therapist. For the most part they're a waste of money ans time. Most people come out either the same they were before they went to therapy or even worse in some instances. I went to therapy when I was in middle school and after about 2 years of it the doctor basically cancelled me as a patient and told my mom "there's nothing I can do to make him feel better about himself, I've literally tried everything" so basically after she had billed my parents for 2 years I had come out exactly the same way I was before. What a joke lol

Don't knock something just because it didn't work for you. Would you tell a sucidal person to not seek therapy because "it's a waste of time and they'll kill thenselves anyway?" Therapy is there for the mentally unstable, but silly people who feel bad about themselves take advantage of that and when it "doesn't work" it's not because the therapist was a failure, it's because said patients refuses to see past the end of their nose and is feeling oh so sorry for themselves.
Fixing your depression requires fixing the external issues that cause your depression and self hatred. And therapist can't do that.

Well I don't know about anyone else but whenever I'm depressed it's not because of self hate.

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unopescio

manic depression sucks heaps/is totally awesome

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Travedge

manic depression sucks heaps/is totally awesome

I wonder if its the years of chemical self mutilation or a actual condition. Whenever Im sober an give it a month or more I feel the same as before I did any of that mess.

 

Its like different states of mind. Either crushing depression or flowing fast mania. Idk.

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I cucked Alex Jones

I've never really had stable relationships or a steady job. I've been on and off different medications and through multiple therapists and nothing has stabilized my moods. Bipolar 1 f*cking sucks. I would do anything to have some stability.

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Mister Pink

I've never really had stable relationships or a steady job. I've been on and off different medications and through multiple therapists and nothing has stabilized my moods. Bipolar 1 f*cking sucks. I would do anything to have some stability.

 

I was the same when it came to work but in the last 5 years I have been able to find balance. Never give up hope. The first time I spent a year in a job, I felt great about myself. Next job I was able to spend 2 years (only stopped because contracts strictly weren't renewed). Before that I only last months. Now when I start a new job, I aim higher than just attending. I'm playing a longer game with aims for promotion. Setting small personal goals is a great way keep focus and stay in place. I'm still prone to depression and but I just want to give you a little hope that you may not have been able to main sustain a professional life in a stable manner for longer periods but it is possible. Thankfully more work places are becoming pro-active in helping employees through difficult periods, particularly when it comes to depression or mental illness.

 

I mean that for relationships too. What you are and what you do, is in your control. The future is your picture to paint.

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Urban Legends

It's perfectly normal to be sad and depressed about things from time to time. Gotta talk about your feelings...such a great gift we have!

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Pete4000uk

I suffer somewhat from depression but my anxiety can be crippling

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 dice

This is a good video, although the problem is presented in a mildly sarcastic manner

 

 

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Lemoyne outlaw

im depressed now. my life sucks. I just spent 3 hours alone in a public session and none of my friends wanted to play with me. I was asking them but nobody wants to play with a squeaker. my voice never changed. so im stuck with a voice like an annoying 10 year old. IT f*ckING SUCKS!!!!! do you know what its like to join a lobby and say hi or does anybody want to grind money? what do I get? shut up little kid its past your bed time. or they cuss at me or even some think im a woman. or the most stupid one I f*cked your mom last night. it hurts so much!!!!! im in my 20s but I don't sound like one. so to all you men out there be thankful you have a deep voice because it is painful without it. I would give anything to sound my age and to join a lobby and say hi and not get insulted. and be treated like a human. when people ask me how old I am and I say 20s they just laugh and think im lying.

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Irish45455

I got into a car accident Friday and it was so... Odd. I blacked out for a second and all I remember thinking is, "This is it. It's finally over. I'm finally going to die." and honestly, as f*cked up as it sounds, I was sad to see when I came to that I wasn't dead. After getting rear ended by someone going at least forty five miles per hour while I was stopped, I'm surprised I'm not dead. I never realized just how much I want to die until then. Thank Christ I'm going to see a therapist soon. I can't live like this anymore. The constant self loathing, depression, anxiety and possible PTSD are like a huge weight that I'm just dragging around with me. I hate not feeling happy. I hate not being able to smile.

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Gummy 

Should change the thread to a general mental illness support thread.

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Tigereyesxx

Get out into the fresh air as much as possible, work out, when inside play games and watch favourite tv shows, have sex with someone or on your own, sleep,eat chocolate, ice cream, fried chicken ,drink good wine, whatever floats your boat...it doesn't get much better than that ,sorry to say....

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Gnocchi Flip Flops

^ I do most of those on the daily. Doesn't help much. While it should feel better that I'm not wallowing in self pity and not doing anything and not trying to bring everyone around me down, it kind of doesn't.

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Tigereyesxx

^ I do most of those on the daily. Doesn't help much. While it should feel better that I'm not wallowing in self pity and not doing anything and not trying to bring everyone around me down, it kind of doesn't.

A well known herbal remedy called St.Johns Wort could be tried, heard its very effective , takes a little while to kick in, so be patient. Maybe give it a go....

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iiConTr0v3rSYx

I have on and off again bouts with it ever since my father passed in November. It doesn't help that my mother is also recovering from lung cancer.

 

I think it's best to always talk to someone. Never hold in your feelings. As stated above, I've also begun going to the gym to ease my mind and relieve stress.

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Input

You know, it's a time in my life I prefer to block out, but it took surviving my own suicide to get me out of depression.

 

I couldn't really pinpoint a cause or anything but pretty much by the end of middle school I was already starting to sink in. It carried up until just a few years ago, which was about 2 years after graduating high school that I "quit" life. I dunno, leading up to it I was just miserable. Every smile was fake, my presence was just dead, I was basically a zombie on auto-pilot.

 

Post suicide, I'm definitely not "cured" and nowhere near happy but I do things differently now. Part of my rehab was lifting weights, and another big thing was to occupy my mind with challenges and anything other than me. So, I play chess a lot, I study complex things, in fact right now I'm learning Japanese alongside studying stock market science. That and college is keeping my mind out dark places.

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CCPD

 

Depression is just part of us now and it doesn't mean there's something wrong with you.

If you mean depression by low mood then yes, if you mean depression as a medical diagnosis then no, you are completely wrong.

 

Pretty sure you meant to say that I'm completely right on every point, and I would agree. I see where you stumbled and got confused, that happens. But we here to assist the fellow user with his difficulties, not to praise my great points.

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Audi

Who trains you?

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Karami

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Gnocchi Flip Flops

It's honestly disgusting that people use the "other's have it worse" response to people with depression. All it says is "okay lemme bottle up my emotions because that's smart right?" "thanks for showing that you care or that how I feel matters, /s" and "there is nothing wrong with me because I have it better than some so everything is A-okay" (when it's not). There's a difference between offering perspective or advice and then just being a careless asshole.

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