I Have a Confession to Make

[DarkSavageDeathlyCloud]

 

after a few times i got a taste for dick..

Wait, his name was Dick?

 

woud be kinda funny if it was

[Femme Fatale]

i experimented with my nephew when i was 13 and he 14....after a few times i got a taste for dick....and it never left.....EVER !

You sucked off your nephew? And we wonder why homophobes call us sexual deviants...

[DarkSavageDeathlyCloud]

 

i experimented with my nephew when i was 13 and he 14....after a few times i got a taste for dick....and it never left.....EVER !

You sucked off your nephew? And we wonder why homophobes call us sexual deviants...Meh...not blood related, not man and girl act, 1 year age diference, nothing done i didn't want to happen(at the time i coud say the oposite was true ) and i gues its the same for him since he proposed it...

 

Also if you are gay it is simply imposible to please homophobes no matter what you do(#RationalThinking)so...if they want to use this story for their homophobic agenda i do not care.

Besides, if i have to convince everyone that im just youre average human being, i will fail at that miserably since i am simply not because:

 

-i am adopted but do not give anything about the country i came from since i no longer live there

 

-i get off on gay BDSM related things

 

-i truely got no true friends, yet i am not lonely and when im not working i feel like time flies by

 

-i often thought about suicide in the past in the form of schoolschootings

 

-i have been a self-hating homophobe for 4 years

 

-even today i often still feel i am walking the border of insanity since i sometimes get some sort of akward panic atacks on random occasions but i can still hide them 1/10th of the time and if i can not, i simply tell im not feeling well without going into greater detail, and i rarely talk about it in real life since other people their concern in their eyes and voice just make such "atacks" worser and trying to ignore them makes things better(its realy an akward happening)

 

-my mother, some family related people and me think about myself as a pretty cold human being in a way and say i lack much empathy.

Not to say i do not have it at all...but it is realy a limited thing

 

-i am the most clumsy person i know...and realy slow of thought with moments

 

- i still sleep with 2 stuffed toys

 

-im happy that nobody will be able to claim my organs if i get run over by a truck, because i honestly dislike the thought of helping people i do not know yet, since i condsider many people to have a garbage personality

 

-if i am looking for sexdates, i consider the other people im doing stuff with tools i shoud just give the minimum amount of respect needed.

What happens with those people after i am done is not my concern.

 

-i am fully aware that if most people woud truely know me they woud think i am an asshole, but i woud not care

 

-i hate lying, but if someone is anoying me enough i suddenly love to lie

 

-i love the idea of owning a firearm

 

-ect...

 

besides the fact im just confessing a few thing...point is...i do not think i am a great role model to project on what is called the LGBT-community

hell...it simply woud not be an accurate representation

 

 

but further on the happening in my young life, that by some of todays definitions is called incest(if it is its not bad IMO)... the internet is filled with this kind of stories(including stories between underaged bloodrelated siblings of the oposite sex and sh*t almost getting it on) last time i checked.

.....

Must say that has been a long time since i did that, since i am currently no longer underaged myself anymore or questioning my own sexuality and thus these says i am more into true porn, real sexdating and BDSM related stories to get off on or be inspired by

 

same for coming out stories....wow...when woud have been the last one i watched ?

So yea...my confessions shoud not truely matter for so called members of the LGBT-community or homophobes...but hey...i gues i can not stop them from caring

Edited May 21, 2016 by goldadderXD

[Ronzilla.]

I have to fight to keep my erection down whenever I see an exceptionally large derrier. No matter her size or shape, every cell in my body screams, "f*ck her!"

Preach it, bruh

Edited May 21, 2016 by Ronzilla187

[The Dedito Gae]

I have to fight to keep my erection down whenever I see an exceptionally large derrier...

 

 

I'm more of a face/titty guy butt butts are cool too.

Edited May 21, 2016 by Midnight Hitman

[Voodoo]

I'm probably an ass man. People are always telling me, "You're an ass, man."

[AlienTwo]

Punctuation is key.

 

[Balthazaar Satanas]

I like kittens.

 

They're so fluffy and cuddly and they purr and-

 

...I will end you if this gets out.

[sreyazsec]

Lately my mind has been thinking terrible things. I am afraid of death and what could be waiting.. Not just my death but the death of everyone around me.

 

I can't really do anything without thinking about my family who will die and my own death. It is making me very sad.

Last time it was this bad, I was 12 and slept 4/5 hours in the day after I finished school because I was too upset and scared to sleep at night.

Edited June 8, 2016 by ceszayers

[Queen]

Not sure what to tell you other than death is a part of life. It's inevitable. There's no sense in worrying about it. What you should focus on is making every day count and ensure that you're living a full life. And frankly, you won't be able to do that if you're freaking out 24/7 about dying.

 

Though I will confess that my thoughts have been on death as well lately. My father just turned 60, and at the same time, one of our good friends who is roughly the same age has breast cancer. So yeah, I started to think about how much time I have left with my father...because you never really know, do you? But that just brings me back to my point. Make every day count, and let the people you love know that you love them.

[mr quick]

Lately my mind has been thinking terrible things. I am afraid of death and what could be waiting.. It's starting to affect me everyday now though. Not just my death but the death of everyone around me.

 

It's always at the front of my mind. It terrifies me. It's making me miserable.

I can't really do anything without thinking about my family who will die and my own death. It is making me very sad, I don't know why it's gotten so bad lately, I'm struggling to sleep even with pills because I think about it and it gets me into a state.

 

Last time it was this bad, I was 12 and slept 4/5 hours in the day after I finished school because I was too upset and scared to sleep at night.

I thought I got over it, I don't know how to stop myself from being upset by it.

It sounds stupid but it's genuinely hurting me a lot.. I don't know what to f*cking do about it.

 

are you doing something otherwise fulfilling? when I was doing "nothing" I also had the recurring thoughts about mortality- although probably not to the same extent as you.

my theory is that i felt like my life was stagnating... "is this it for all my life?", wondering if I would ever live a fulfilling life, or if death would come "too soon" because I had done nothing. I very rarely think about life & death any more because I've pursued my passion & dreams, and will be doign so even more in the near future.

 

it's too late at night for me to make any sense but I'm trying to say that if mortality is on your mind a lot, maybe it's because you're afraid of living an unfulfilling life or something

[sreyazsec]

Not sure what to tell you other than death is a part of life. It's inevitable. There's no sense in worrying about it. What you should focus on is making every day count and ensure that you're living a full life. And frankly, you won't be able to do that if you're freaking out 24/7 about dying.

 

Though I will confess that my thoughts have been on death as well lately. My father just turned 60, and at the same time, one of our good friends who is roughly the same age has breast cancer. So yeah, I started to think about how much time I have left with my father...because you never really know, do you? But that just brings me back to my point. Make every day count, and let the people you love know that you love them.

I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

A loved one dealing with cancer is an awful thing, I wish them all the best.

 

Yes, you're right.. I didn't realise until I read your post but whilst my head has been like this, I've stopped doing things without realising. I've been spending all my time in bed miserable and spaced out. I have to remember that, if I let this upset me - I'm wasting time.

 

 

 

 

are you doing something otherwise fulfilling? when I was doing "nothing" I also had the recurring thoughts about mortality- although probably not to the same extent as you.

my theory is that i felt like my life was stagnating... "is this it for all my life?", wondering if I would ever live a fulfilling life, or if death would come "too soon" because I had done nothing. I very rarely think about life & death any more because I've pursued my passion & dreams, and will be doign so even more in the near future.

 

it's too late at night for me to make any sense but I'm trying to say that if mortality is on your mind a lot, maybe it's because you're afraid of living an unfulfilling life or something

 

I'm working on something (career wise) but it's from home so it's not really anything special at the moment.

 

I think that's definitely part of it

The more I think about death, the more I panic about dying and being forgotten, not having left anything behind. I don't want to die knowing I've not done anything of value.

I feel like I have to do something so neither me nor my family are forgotten.. That's one of the big issues that's stressing me out. I don't even know how to live a fulfilling life.

[Hunter]

^No one knows for sure what happens when you die. I'm not saying we all go up to a fluffy cloud where we live happily ever after, but ... We live in a world where there's plenty of weird unexplained sh*t, and nobody has a clue why we're here, or what will happen to us. Anything could happen.

 

It's easier said than done, but I wouldn't worry too much. You can only do what's in your power anyway, and worrying about death/things out of your control won't help.

[sreyazsec]

Just thought I'd say, last night when I started feeling down about it all again, I forced myself to think about you guys said. It helped.

Thank you.

Edited May 22, 2016 by ceszayers

[Queen]

Glad we could help.

[sreyazsec]

I find men in the 40-60s attractive.

Some men (most men) get more attractive as they get older, especially in this day and age.

Edited June 8, 2016 by ceszayers

[Voodoo]

We're all friends here, right?

[RedDagger]

Really?

 

oh boy, I can't wait to tell mother that I've managed to get friends

 

On another note, I'm not spending nearly enough time on my hobbies as I could be

motivation doesn't seem to be in constant supply to put it one way

[sreyazsec]

Now don't get carried away.

'Next best thing' was me being rather generous.

[Voodoo]

I confess I might open the feels topic to post my feels about that.

[LincolnClay]

I confess I might open the feels topic to post my feels about that.

I feel very happy...*coughs* I mean I CONFESS that makes me happy...

[mr quick]

Really?

 

oh boy, I can't wait to tell mother that I've managed to get friends

 

On another note, I'm not spending nearly enough time on my hobbies as I could be

motivation doesn't seem to be in constant supply to put it one way

 

ditch school

 

trust me i know what im douign

[Fuzzknuckles]

ditch school

For some people, just ditching things isn't that easy.

 

The Connection say Hi, by the way

[mr quick]

to be fair i never ditched school because I only have a HS education B- )

[Voodoo]

For some people, just ditching things isn't that easy.

 

The Connection say Hi, by the way

 

Oh snap.

[Zoobz]

I can be a bad friend. Meaning to meet up with friends but never get around to it.

 

E.g.

 

 

 

 

[Queen]

Every time I see Walmart's emblem, I see an asshole.

 

 

 

I mean, I can't be the only person who sees it. Right?

 

RIGHT?!

Edited May 25, 2016 by Queen

[The Dedito Gae]

I see 6 coffins.

 

 

I can't see an anus because i know that guy would turd chips or something, bungholes don't look like that.

Edited May 25, 2016 by Midnight Hitman

[make total destroy]

I find men in the 40-60s attractive, that's the main age group of which I'm attracted to and I have been like that since I was about 11.

I never thought it was odd even at such a young age.

Some men (most men) get more attractive as they get older, especially in this day and age.

 

 

you into DILFs?

[Static]

Every time I see Walmart's emblem, I see an asshole.

 

 

 

I mean, I can't be the only person who sees it. Right?

 

RIGHT?!

 

 

From Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut.