Merry Christmas Tesco & Bob GAndalf

[Mister Pink]

"I hate myself and I want to die", said Kurt Cobain.

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Asshole, well, I don't want to die.Never. Not now, but it feels like the only way. I'm crying I want Bebhinn, I feel like a wuss.

I'm an arrogant narrcassitic(sp?> self centred sh*t ball. I'm so selfish I would attempt to play with such a thing.

 

I'm unlike the rest. I hate that Michael Jackson died. It really hurt me. Maybe because i'm in a fragile state of mind.

I know this , I felt it before. All I need is some excersice. keep my body, mind and soul active.

 

I have low self esteem. (no offece but thanks dad, you really had a way) It was always me.

"You have a chemical imbalance" "you are just different" Did you ever think it was you or meet in d middle?

It was always me. You beat the sh*t out of me. I see you beat the sh*t out of Tristan when I was about 4. On

the kitchen floor in Brookfield. I had dreams to report you. I told you that when I was 15. You forced me to believe that there was something wrong with me

and you were patronising, by offering me outside help. Ah f*ck off why?

 

Why am I wastingvaluable typing time talk ing about you? Oh and learn to have trust in people.

You aren't so great as you think you are Wonder why 'people' as you say dont chat? Well you

f*ckin condencend on folk when you chat. You patronise people. You beat around the bush when you ask questions.

You ask me, "what did you do today?"

 

You rwords: Really what you think: "Did you sit on you ass playing games all day???"

 

"Did you feed Ben"

 

"Really, What time?"

 

Why what time? Just say how you feel without the investigative q's. How about just asking:

 

What time did you feed Ben? Thus putting confidence in your son, knowing that ,eh?

 

"I trust my son that he fed him and I only want to know when he was last fed as to know when to feed him again."

 

just about to take thurs fri sat mon.

 

I love BMcD? Or do I?

 

oh and there b loads of sh*t where you would ask "do this or do that" then you would physically do it front of me

the I would wonder why you asked?

 

Cause obviously you do it best. You ARE the best Dad.

 

i love myself and i want to live said mick the ironic suicidal self deprecator. lol or laugh out...........?

 

you spin me right round baby right round drousy right round

 

sniff sniff, sniff. Hope I done have to buzz round to feel embarrased about this. Hope i bee gone like the wind.