Mondegreen

[Canofceleri]

 

MONDEGREEN

 

 

What did I say?

 

I thought I knew, you know, what about, but I am now starting to second guess myself. When I was born I felt as if a wind was sort of gently gracing my sails, maybe at first in the way of the innate senses, the clean slate of instincts that God started me out with. And then I came to realize, what I hope still remains as true, but what I took for granted then as the presence of mother and father—a mother to feed me and to protect me and a father that I might become. I could have sworn as well that at some point I started testing my knowledge and experiences against those of my quickly maturing peers. All the while, I still acknowledged God, but I had done so much with what he had given me at that point that I felt like I was well off on my own.

 

And then what is a man supposed to do once he arrives at a certain point? Should I have not, having sucked and soaked everything up in my way throughout all my formative years, have taken what I needed of them? Should I not have cut the fat, the weigh of my outcome, and drawn my own conclusions? Should a man not become his own?

 

I thought, I thought I heard right the motor running betwixt my ears, that contemplative drum, undulating and shifting gears noiselessly—at work. I thought I could have trust, but how should it have turned out as it has for me?

 

Is it possible that I’ve been ignorant for my entire life; ignorant that I had gotten it wrong in the first place… that I have lacked substance for my duration all because of a single moment of intellectual downfall? All because of a superficiality, a homophony?

 

Am I a jerk?

 

What did I say?

 

[Ziggy455]

Wow it felt like a compelling rant from start to end-But in a good way.

 

Not bad...Not bad at all