eh, forget it

[Canofceleri]

my eloquence is spent and i'm left with cold numbers,

the who's and why's and how's have been irrelevent for some time now.

bob dylan once said that sometimes even the president must stand naked..

i'm no president, but i sit here reluctant to the complacency of putting my clothes back on.

and i should have children? let us hope he is spared of being a person like me.

 

all i'm good for is fingernailing the scab on the back of my head

and letting out piss,

and no i don't want to go back to the day to day tomorrow-- even though i'm miserable

i'd rather be here than stupid.

"but" nothing, f*ck my rationalizations for the morning's promise and jerk-off normalcy,

i rebuke you, me! for all my angst and existential dread i'm placid and cool-- my digits

come at the keys slowly and erratically like a predator, i'm preying for expression,

futile futile expression.

 

hold on while i sigh.

 

 

 

i'm in debt, and i've always been in debt... i can't know when i'll pay it off

 

butiknowthatiwill and of course that isn't a fun thought and certainly not

fun to say, especially if people are around. and that's why i don't have any friends

because i don't care about fun and i do say it... to people that i don't even know.

eh, forget it.

[poikly]

You are awesome.