sh*t I'll bite
So this was around back in early 2009, one of my best friend's sister just joined us in Grade 11 after going to another school for high school for a bit. This friend of mine became one of my best friends in late 2007 when he joined the school for Grade 10, the same time as one of my other best friends... we were a cool little trilogy for the longest lol. Anyway, fast forward to early 2009, we all used to private bus it to school (this was when I lived in the middle east) and naturally she rode with us too... all three of us and her as well as a few others would all sit in the back talking the whole ride home cracking jokes etc. etc.
This went on for a few weeks til I added her on Facebook and MSN (lol) and we started chatting it up every night for a few days... eventually I started catching feelings for her because of how cute she was and how often we were within contact of each other everyday (even had 3/4 out of 6 classes with her). As the days go by one of my other best friends (not the one who's sister I caught feelings for) starts telling me about how he met someone special recently and he's never been this happy in his life until now... as more days go by I see my crush and him talking one on one during the bus rides back home instead of with all of us in the back. I put 2 and 2 together... yeah. I decided I wouldn't tell him I had feelings for her too and instead tell her how I felt myself about her and see how she felt. As the days lead up to the day I eventually tell her, my best friend finally confirms it is indeed her he caught feelings for too and now I'm f*cking crushed. Do I tell him how I feel about her or just ignore it and try and go after her myself? I chose the latter and it bit me in the ass like nothing else. When I told her I felt "that way" about her, she was instantly taken aback and told me how she didn't feel "that" way about me at all and instead considered me a very close friend because of how chatty I always with her and how I always made her laugh super hard. I kinda thought that meant something was going on between us but clearly not. She didn't know what to say and was just left speechless.
Fast forward a few days later and I eventually tell my friend I had feelings for her too and he gets instantly taken aback... why did I keep it hidden from him all this time? That's what he was surprised about and told me if I told him earlier we could have handled it like gentlemen since we were best friends and all. I felt so bad afterwards... both because I had my best friend insanely pissed off at me and my crush not feeling the same way about me. To this day I still have no idea whether she felt "that" way towards him or not but regardless, she made it clear to both of us that she didn't want any relationship or anything for the time being as we were both best friends with her brother and she didn't want anything to ruin that. I totally understood that as this indeed kinda made things with her brother and me rough as well and now I had a patchy relationship with both of my best friends AND her. f*ck me, right?
Anyway, I just mind my own business the following two/three months of Grade 11 and stop talking to all three and pretty much everyone for that matter. My best friend (my crush's brother) keeps pestering me during these months as to why I won't talk to him and I just don't say anything. Meanwhile my other best friend and him are cool as well as my crush with them both. Man... the second half of Grade 11 was probably one of the worst points of my life. I f*cked up my grades so bad meanwhile lusting over this chick, only for it to amount to nothing as well as my GPA totally being f*cked. To this day I don't talk to any of the three, partially cool with the crush's brother but that's it. We talk like maybe once or twice a year.
Love isn't worth the trouble folks.