I remember it all to well when i was like 10, at a snackbar 'if you can call this a date' and i was nervous as hell because i didn't even know if she liked me or not but i felt butterflies in my stomach because of this girl for the first time ever the moment i saw her... back then it was all funny and new, got pretty serious after we where 13, got engaged at the age of 17 when both parents agreed and by then i already noticed some drastic changes in her personality which got worse almost every year before that.. however loved her and all, that i lived with that. Was going to marry her shortly after when we would turn 18... then she started having more and more personality problems which really started getting out of hand and a month before we where going to marry she just left me and even left the country just out of nohere.
BAM, alone. Just no f*cks given about me, just .. gone.
One day we where like we were ment to be together, planning stuff and a few days earlyer she was crying for no reason, saying she wouldn't know how to go on without me 'if she ever would lose me'... next day she's away for a few hours and i get a freakin text message saying she doesn't want to be with me anymore and she's going away to live with her family in a different country. Phone turned off asap after. Never did anything wrong for her to pull of this move, no reason at all.
Never heard or see her ever since. That was just it...... combined friends of the both of us didn't know a damn about it either, everybody shocked. Contacted her family and they confirmed it and didn't want to give any information, because it was her choice.
Tried loads of stuff to get in contact.. no result.
Never got into dating any more after that. Simple non-serious relations ever since '24 yrs old now'. I still don't exactly understand how all of this happend... still can not really believe it. However its just part of my past now. Never felt 'love' again to be honest ever again after that. Its more one night stands and all that now.
Never regret the times i had with her though, life can turn out in the most unexpected ways, thats for sure.
Had to post that, to many memorries boiling up asap as i though of 'first date'. I'm pretty happy now without dating, just fooling around with girls/woman i get to know one way or another.