I think the OP is trying to say that he/she doesn't have the "will" to keep playing GTA:O. That's what I'm getting from this as I'm currently in this dilemma. Then again, I've played GTA:O for months straight, all day so I might of played the crap out of the game. Now when I turn on my console, though, is a long loading, more loading, time-outs, dicks trying to kill me, grinding missions to get money to buy the extremely expensive stuff, being stuck in the clouds, waiting a very long minute in loading to find a deathmatch in free-aim (finally!) only to get kicked. It's really infuriating to have so little gameplay out of an hour of "gaming". Of course, when I think back on it such as GTA IV, my all-time favorite game, the online was just me in a freeroam finding a car, weapons, armor and killing anyone I could or having a blast with my friends. There wasn't anything deep to it. You could learn glitches, create your own tactics, chill, anything you could think of but still limited. GTA:O has many modes and is much deeper but the difference now is that my friends have an Xbox One or have grown tired of GTA:O. Sure, I could join a meet here but meeting people from the forum isn't the same as playing with friends. I can moan and groan all I want but truth is I love GTA:O. I keep playing it (very rarely...but still).
I'm around level 160 and that doesn't mean I'm rich. I need to do a mission to get snacks, you feel me? I can't even afford the car wash, I instead spit on my car over and over again to clean it. If I need bullets, I venture in front of a player to fill me with enough bullets so I can take them out and put them in my gun. I missed out on the double XP & money and the new DLC has sh*tty-looking cars that cost more, in terms of year to value, than a Bugatti Veyron Super Sport Extreme Real Gold Limited VIP Special Only-One-Ever-Made Edition. So yeah, I can understand OP. If you have no friends and no in-game money, it can suck. Going into freeroam lobbies isn't always fun, too, so it's hard to see why some of us should keep playing. I don't have anything positive to say such as "you can do this to have fun" but I do know that the best of GTA:O isn't out yet. We haven't experienced the full potential of GTA:O. Think of updates as keeping up with the new stuff towards the end result. While the level 100 requirement to get the Dubsta 6x6 was great, higher level-locked requirements should be made but not to the point of grinding 40 levels (which is really hard if you're a high level) just to get some gun. I don't care if it can shoot rainbows and has the voice of Obama himself screaming, "I WILL RECREATE THE WHITE HOUSE ON YOUR FACE USING MY LOVE GUN" with each shot, a gun is a gun. Maybe a really cool ability, nothing overpowered but something you KNOW that player is level 200. I feel R* have a lot on their minds for a long time now which is why they feed us those little DLC's until heists (some don't care about heists by this point further reducing the point of playing) but you gotta find what you enjoy the most, as said here quite a lot.
I've written down the missions I enjoy the most. I LOVE GTA Today which is from cheap-paying Simeon so you know the mission isn't worth it money wise but it's such a fun mission that I do it whenever I can. There's also good paying missions like Defender that I enjoy so it's not all lost. When the mood strikes me, I'll go in freeroam and chat (despite many lobbies having no one talking which can be a bummer if you're feeling chatty), find races, deathmatches and find random missions to do with other players. To find the fun of GTA:O now, I found out that you gotta do stuff you didn't do much (or at all) a month ago. You gotta keep it fresh. There's always something to do even if you feel you've done everything.