I’ve thought about committing suicide sometimes or a few because of crazy voices in my head possibly from demons and their oppression. Thank god there are almost gone/gone. Is anybody experiencing this / experienced this? Some good answers would be appreciated. Thank you.
Not really. Schizophrenia is confirmed after around six months of psychotic episodes. He might have had a psychotic episode because of drugs abuse. If he's conscious that he might be turning insane, then it's a possibility that he's not schizophrenic at all and he's having other troubles (while most of you westerners don't tend to trust demonic possessions, I think they are true). You know, schizophrenic patients are totally refusing that they're insane and they're blaming others around him as being the mad people.
Anyway, I recommend you reading on Google about schizophrenia, see if you have any symptoms from that list and if you do, then go and see a psychiatrist as soon as possible, or at least tell your parents about it and tell them to find a psychiatrist for you. I think for most of the paranoid schizoid patients, this situation is totally out of their mind and they will avoid any kind of medication evaluation. So you better check yourself now before it's a bit late. If this worsens, you might commit some acts you probably don't want.
Sometimes I think I'm going schizoid too, depression and anxiety turned me upside down and I feel like sh*t, especially at night, but I don't really hear any voices. I've seen a sequence of a horror movie last night and I think it had an impact on me as after I turned to bed, I've started fearing demons, creatures and only a prayer to God helped me to improve that fear.
As for on-topic, yeah, I've thought quite a few times about suicide, but I think it's totally out of the things I would do. Only if I lose my mind, that's my fear, then I would commit suicide. When depression gives you hard-time feelings that I really can't describe, associated with masturbation, anxiety and lack of social skills, you're really going mad. I've always wanted to change my life but my lack of motivation and having no balls kept me down everytime I was trying to change my life. Then if I was failing, I would feel depressed, thinking that I'm such a fa**ot that I'll never change my life, I'll stay forever alone, with no girlfriend, no wife, masturbate all my life, and having no friends, no party. This give me real headache, it's hard to keep my head up when I've seen my social life ruined in the last three years. Everything worsened in my last three years and there's no exit door out of this nightmare.
Then yeah, you think about suicide. When you are unsatisfied of your life, when you see all your tries -to change the life- going to nowhere, when you are trying hard to improve yourself, when you are so lazy to study, when your parents give you big time arguing about your studies, but you don't want to keep doing it because they're boring as f*ck, when you haven't chose your path in life, when your life is not going in the way you wanna go, when you know you're such a beautiful individual but no one wants to find out your personality, when no one is as loyal as you are to the people, then what the f*ck is this life worth to live? It's no satisfaction, would you live in the same misery for the rest of your life?
People don't know how's depression and how we are dealing with it every f*cking day, how our minds keep thinking, thinking, like, I'm really exhausted, but my mind won't f*cking shut up. It's hard to relax, it's hard to sleep because of the abundance of words, thoughts I get at night. Like I'm about to write a f*cking poem, I think I could do it at night.