Everyone knows sh*t about philosophy.... like... asking questions... like.. whether or not your mind has a direct influence on the world around you? and if it does what does that mean and to what extent does it influence the world?
A Cliche one would be "IS the yellow I see the yellow everyone sees" cus like, my yellow could be your red yet we both call it yellow... perhaps an explaination to the reason why some people like their paint jobs while others think it is god awful.
or like "IS everything pre-designed or is it all in the moment? if it is all in the moment, then is anything 'meant to be' or is it all random? "
These questions are good because once you an make sense of the world around you, or perhaps understand the extent of which you can understand the world around you, you can then place yourself in the world. Even if you never find the answer to any question you ever asked, you are still questioning it and thus becoming more comfortable with it, braver or more mature sort of speak.
Anyways.. I will end up rambling.. honestly for me, best way to deal with the anxious stress that comes with the idea of someone else "pwning" you is practicing martial arts... Like... I have had my ass kicked by so many people in the 15 years I have been training... sooo many people.... but i've also kicked some ass.... same sh*t happens in GTA O....
Learn to get your ass kicked... I will again bring about the original quote I left you
- The Way of the Samurai is found in death. Meditation on inevitable death should be performed daily. Every day when one's body and mind are at peace, one should meditate upon being ripped apart by arrows, rifles, spears and swords, being carried away by surging waves, being thrown into the midst of a great fire, being struck by lightning, being shaken to death by a great earthquake, falling from thousand-foot cliffs, dying of disease or committing seppuku at the death of one's master. And every day without fail one should consider himself as dead. This is the substance of the way of the samurai.
By meditating on being destoryed, you are essentially preparing yourself for death, shame, getting your ass kicked, getting your ass handed to you... being showed up.. being tossed about like a rag doll to the force of another's will.... let it be the universe or another human..
Try meditation, it requires no reading and will calm the mind, prepare it for the universe, the real one and the gta o one...