I've been dead on here for a while, but I'm back just looking for a place to vent constructively. I have always found that writing down ones thoughts and feelings is the best way to deal with them but one can learn a lot about oneself by reflecting on these thoughts at a later time.
I find myself becoming increasingly angry at the issues that are facing the once great British society:
- The rising cost of living
- The poorer getting poorer and richer getting richer
- Mass unemployment
- Public depression
- The public opinion on my generation
- Bankers profiting off the recession
- The wrong sort of attention on politicians for the wrong reasons
- Servicemen being criticized for doing exactly what the taxpayer pays them to do
- Poorly formed government initiatives that are being exploited by international corporations
- The Intelligence services being penalized for "knowing to much"
But most importantly, I'm angry at the fact it doesn't seem to get any better. I can't help think that I'm crying over spilt milk, because I feel that I'm too young - at the ripe old age of 19 - to do anything about it. I try to focus on my own sh*t, deal with my own problems, but it's all you ever hear about these days. News isn't meant to be happy I know, and I'm not one of the fanatical kind who believes that the media is one massive conspiracy to keep the masses informed with controlled knowledge that is supposed to keep me in fear. After all, I'm not scared, I'm just angry.
So, who am I? Well, I'm a 19 year old lad with a decently paid job (for the work I do), who goes to the gym in the week and drinks on the weekend, lives at home, plays Xbox, loves his mum and dad, hates his brother and lives for his friends. I'll join the Forces too, I just haven't quite got there yet. It's a normal life for a normal person. But I don't feel too normal these days; because I'm angry at what's around me. Surely a normal person wouldn't get angry at this, quite frankly, sh*te state of affairs my country is in? You tell me.
When I'm not finding myself angry at these situations (or getting pissed off when I hear the theme for BBC News), I'm asking myself the questions "why am I angry" and "what can I do about it"?. I cannot come up with an answer for either, but only a best guess. For being angry, I guess I just feel helpless because I can't change it and it comes back to my desire for me wanting to help people - the people I will never meet, the people I just pass in the street and the people who I hold nearest and dearest. All I've ever wanted to do is help people, but how do I do it? Who the f*ck knows.
What can I do about it? I wouldn't even know where to begin thinking about how to change the world, but I guess I'm gonna keep being angry at it until I see some f*cking change.
I'm sure a lot of people are angry or minorly annoyed at the state the UK and the rest of the world is in, but does anyone feel like I do? Has anyone just woken up one morning, done their usual routine, but as they look at the TV or listened to the radio, have they had the thought of "What the f*ck has it all come too"?. Maybe some people feel like I do and just wanna try and make it better, but who knows.
Tell me what you think it is, cause I just do not know anymore.