I'm 17 years old and I just can't stand my face and body. To the point that I stopped looking at myself in the mirror. It's absolutely depressing.
I'm theoretically underweight, but my chin is broad as crap (I look like an American when in short hair, lolz), cheeks are plump, I have a tiny double chin, my nose is too long and my eyes make me look like a non-intelligent pervert; it's like there are no emotions in them. It feels horrible just looking at myself, looking at that stupid feminine teenager pussy that I am. Also, my legs are very muscular and it's probably due to both the genetics (screw you, mom) and the fact that I used to play a lot of football when I was a grade school puffy slug bitch. Reckon I can't do anything about it. I wish I could lose muscles in that spot, but everytime I search Google for any information regarding that, it says there ain't no 100% guarantees that it's possible to reduce them. Overally, I look inconsistent: fat face, skinny upper body, and muscular legs. Just thank you God, for making me look like a total asshole. I appreciate your love towards humanity.
I used to be on a diet combined with cardio to lose some weight. To make my face look slim and, perhaps, make my legs less muscular. And indeed, my buggy-as-Bethesda's-games face looked more manly, my legs were a bit slimmer, but hell, I was even more underweight than I was before! That's unhealthy, I felt weak! And besides, I still think I looked like a cheap prostitute. I came back to my original weight lately and, again, I feel really embarassed whenever I look at myself in the mirror or see a picture of my ass, argh, I mean face...
There have been a number of ladies that wanted me. Some of them were even... manic about me (my f*cking gosh, who would thought that the horrible face of mine would attract any femme). Especially after that diet, some hot bitches kept their slutty eyes on me. Quite cool. But still, it's not enough for me. I want to look good for MYSELF, not for THEM.
I don't know what to do. Perhaps I should burn some fat again, then start working on muscle mass in the upper body region? Will that make my face less puffy? Does muscle training change face, anyway?
Do you feel like me, people?