Sorry to bump this but I gotta get this off my chest and heres the only place I can think of.
So ever since 10th grade, my sister started college. She's a straight A student, advanced and honors classes played softball and lacross and had a job when she turned 16. Basically she's the "all star"of the kids in the family. (My brothers moved out and are older). Anyways, our family isn't well financially, parents divorced and fight over money, dads sick and out of work, mom works two jobs trying to make enough to put my sister through school. So basically my mom makes just enough to get my sister through school. And she focuses everything she has on her. It never botheed me until this year really, of course I'll be happy for her because she's doing great in a good university. But things have been annoying me more and more over this last year and I don't know what to do.
Now that I have my license, I can't have my own car because my mom puts all of her money into my sisters apartment, or gas money, or tuition or this or that and has no money to give me for anything for that matter. I literally had to wait until christmas to get a new backpack. before that I ghetto'd it out with duct taped and zip tied backpack. My clothes are all hand-me-downs of my older brothers. My shoes have a whole in one and the others ripped and I can't get a new pair for a while. My grandpa offered me his car, not the most ideal driving a grand marque but it's alot better than nothing. BUT, right before I was able to get it, my sister needed a car to get to school, so my brothers fixed it for her, my mom put it on her insurance and my sister drove it to college. She even told me she doesn't use it. She said it sits in the parking area down there. Also, with my family now in debt I can't go to college. I've pretty much mostly given up on the idea of going to college because theres barely enough to get my sister through. I'm basically just skating through high school now, getting mostly c's in average classes and not really giving a crap anymore. I lost the whole motivation to do good. I wanted to get a job with some friends, but since I don't have a car I can't get there. I can't get a car without a job, and I can't get a job without a car. I live too far away to walk anywhere close, so thats out of the question. My mom makes a a mess of the house sometimes and blames me for it. She blames me for almost every problem that comes up in the house. When my sister comes home, usually with a friend from college, my mom freaks about the house being messy and makes me clean everything. When my sister is home she acts like she owns the place. My brothers and her have moved out and she still has a bigger room than me. I have the smallest room in the whole house. I'll try and play xbox, she'll come in and ask when I'm getting off. Then get angry when I say in a while, or I just got on. Or if where having people over, or theres any chores to do, she goes out with her friends, or doesn't help at all. Then I get no credit and she does. It's just plain annoying and I can't take it anymore. No job, no car, no college and my teen years are being ruined by this.
EDIT: I wish I could live with my dad, but he is sick with liver disease and arthritis and he lost his job. He got notice from the insurance companies warning him they may come for his cars soon.
I haven't heard one thanks or anything, she doesn't think she owes me anything, what about what I did for her? I don't know if I wanted an answer or, an opinion or what... I just needed to get it out finally. It's been eating away for a while now.