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Posted 09 December 2007 - 10:21 PM

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This is my dad, he passed away a couple months after this pic. He was 57. sad.gif Bye, dad. Oh well, he wasn't healthy or happy, I suppose it was better just to happen. The same year my mom left him and I did too (I moved to KY, he was very depressed about it). The next door neighboor was coming to give him some food and found him around 9:30 pm on the floor in front of his door with his tongue sticking out. He had complained about a pain in his leg that was moving up to his groin earlier that day and nobody thought much about it, let alone that he'd die from a blood clot going to his lungs and heart later on.

Right now he's rotting away on the Body Farm at the University of TN, possibly completely exposed to the elements, or in a shallow grave, or in a car trunk-- decomposing. He did a lot for his family and made a lot of sacrifices for everyone.. he was by no means perfect, but he was a good father to me. He was a sad sad old man even at the young age of 57, I will think about him and the troubles he endured his whole life until I die. I'm not really sentimental, everyone dies, but I hold a special place in mind for him. He always said he was going to die young like his father, but I don't think he would've imagined dying as young as he finally did.

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Posted 09 December 2007 - 11:30 PM

lol, pet AND family.

Like that's even close to the same thing.

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Posted 09 December 2007 - 11:50 PM

QUOTE (WidowMaker. @ Dec 9 2007, 19:30)
lol, pet AND family.

Like that's even close to the same thing.

Some people relate to other animals more than they can to other people. It isn't weird at all really.

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Posted 09 December 2007 - 11:52 PM

QUOTE (Candarelli @ Dec 9 2007, 23:50)
QUOTE (WidowMaker. @ Dec 9 2007, 19:30)
lol, pet AND family.

Like that's even close to the same thing.

Some people relate to other animals more than they can to other people. It isn't weird at all really.

Yeah, they're called furries.

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Posted 09 December 2007 - 11:56 PM

Anyway, I almost forgot to give my e-condolences to those who have lost someone recently or whenever. I saw someone lost a mom, someone a girl, a few pets, etc. It's a sh*tty part of life, but there's not an animal on this earth that's going to live forever, humans included. It's kind of absurd in a way how we spend all our lives building a family and relationships to know on some level that those ties are going to be severed at some point. Life can be really sh*tty, but at the end of the day I'm glad I'm here for it while it lasts.

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 12:14 AM Edited by kevin2006rhs, 10 December 2007 - 12:16 AM.

Eh...I havent had anyone or any animal too important or close to me die but I have had some love shattered here in the last year on a repeated basis.


As some of you know, I left for the Army back in mid 06. The girl I was totally devoted to and loved dearly was the only person I focused on my whole time of enlistment. We met each other through a mutual friend back in my junior year of high school and were attached at the hip. She was only a year younger than me but for some reason we had just never met each other before we were introduced, but I really wish I would have met her years before I did. Anyways, we never officially started dating in high school but it was pretty damn obvious to everyone.

When I left for the military, it was pretty gut-wenching. Having her cry for 2 hours and try to keep it cool. It was horrible because in the last 10 minutes, before I left her house and got on the plane for Ft. Knox, I broke down and started sobbing. It was the first moment in my life that I really felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest.

I kept in constant contact with her through my 9 months of enlistment. My constant and condensed training schedule left me for only about 15 minutes a day, if that, to call her and tell her I love her and miss her. I came home for Christmas Exodus and it was like we were never apart. But, again, I had to leave, and the pre-seperation moments were 10 times harder than when I first left for the Army life. We eventually let go of each other and I was back almost getting killed day in, and day out.

I still kept in touch with her. Since the grenade incident back in first part of 07, I had more time to talk to her over the phone and get some access to computers w/ internet. Things were getting better and it looked like our 5 months separation was coming to an end and we would finally have each other. I went into surgery and was home at the end of April.

Something happened. I dont know what but it all caved in on itself. She didn't have time to see me between work and school, and for some reason we just let go. It was the first and only time in my life were everything lost all meaning and I lost it. Depression kicked in and I kinda fell to pieces. I ended up hooking up with the girl I am with now, and I have become happier, but I have not had the feeling of love since I was with Samantha.

Finally, about a month ago I started talking to her again. Back maybe a month after we stopped talking, she got into a really bad car accident. She was going about 60mph/100kph, hydroplaned in her lil Ford Escort ZX2, and rear ended a semi truck. She shattered her right femur and cause a lot of internal problems (no surgery on torso, however). She should have died. The car basically disintegrated around her. I felt like I left her when she needed me most and I felt like I lost the person that, even though I wasnt talking to, made me happiest in life.

To this day, we are distant. I am trying to work it out and figure out if it would be worth fighting to get her back. There hasn't been a day since I first met her that I haven't had her on my mind. It makes me wonder if I am nuts or obsessed, or just saddly in love with something that I can't have. I really hope it isn't either of them but it isn't looking good.

So yeah, I don't know if I have had to say goodbye to her, but she is pretty much gone and I can not let her go and it hurts very much. I just can't let myself say goodbye and its driving me nuts.




Anyways, I guess this kinda pales in comparison to those of you with family you have lost...I fell kind of petty compaired to you guys. But its the one thing in my life that I would give everything in the world and my left nut for and still don't have.

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 12:23 AM

QUOTE (Candarelli @ Dec 9 2007, 21:56)
Anyway, I almost forgot to give my e-condolences to those who have lost someone recently or whenever. I saw someone lost a mom, someone a girl, a few pets, etc. It's a sh*tty part of life, but there's not an animal on this earth that's going to live forever, humans included. It's kind of absurd in a way how we spend all our lives building a family and relationships to know on some level that those ties are going to be severed at some point. Life can be really sh*tty, but at the end of the day I'm glad I'm here for it while it lasts.

That's why you should make the most of your time. Enjoy the people you like to the maximum before they leave, so that if you feel bad about it, at least you know that they loved you as much as you loved them =)

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 02:43 AM

QUOTE (Candarelli @ Dec 9 2007, 18:21)
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Right now he's rotting away on the Body Farm at the University of TN, possibly completely exposed to the elements, or in a shallow grave, or in a car trunk-- decomposing. He did a lot for his family and made a lot of sacrifices for everyone.. he was by no means perfect, but he was a good father to me. He was a sad sad old man even at the young age of 57, I will think about him and the troubles he endured his whole life until I die. I'm not really sentimental, everyone dies, but I hold a special place in mind for him. He always said he was going to die young like his father, but I don't think he would've imagined dying as young as he finally did.

Holy sh*t! The UT body farm. I live pretty close to that place. It's pretty f*cked up from what I've heard. I've never been there myself though.

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 03:14 AM

I only found out like a month ago. I thought they would do something with him at the regular facility and decapitation would somehow be involved... but my mom told me he couldn't be handled like that because of a blood disease he had (which is completely unrelated to his death) and so they had to take him for the body farm. For some reason I am happier with him being there... I guess because I always wanted to just rot away in some obscure wooded area and decompose or get eaten by animals myself.

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 04:21 AM

QUOTE (Candarelli @ Dec 9 2007, 23:14)
I only found out like a month ago. I thought they would do something with him at the regular facility and decapitation would somehow be involved... but my mom told me he couldn't be handled like that because of a blood disease he had (which is completely unrelated to his death) and so they had to take him for the body farm. For some reason I am happier with him being there... I guess because I always wanted to just rot away in some obscure wooded area and decompose or get eaten by animals myself.

The body farm is a f*cked up place. They even have cars with people rotting inside of them. or just rotting out in the open. Both of which you've already mentioned. My mom had to go there when she was in college for a class. She said it made it her sick.

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 05:29 AM

Well, give her a look at that picture and tell her to go back there and look for him and take a picture of him now and then you post it on here. High res only please.

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 05:38 PM

QUOTE (Candarelli @ Dec 10 2007, 01:29)
Well, give her a look at that picture and tell her to go back there and look for him and take a picture of him now and then you post it on here. High res only please.

LOL. She was in College around 30 years ago. I doubt she would want to go back.

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Posted 10 December 2007 - 09:02 PM Edited by HolyGrenadeFrenzy, 10 December 2007 - 09:08 PM.

QUOTE (WidowMaker @ Dec 9 2007, 18:52)
QUOTE (Candarelli @ Dec 9 2007, 23:50)
QUOTE (WidowMaker. @ Dec 9 2007, 19:30)
lol, pet AND family.

Like that's even close to the same thing.

Some people relate to other animals more than they can to other people. It isn't weird at all really.

Yeah, they're called furries.

Hell, it doesn't matter who you need to say goodbye to, this thread is for all good byes so they are not left undone. It just is for saying Goodbye to those YOU love.
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I have had lots of loss and I mean like 8 deaths between my wife's side and my side of the family.....Then our cat had to move out. sad.gif



This thread still has allot of goodbyes in it and I figure the GTAForums needs a place like this.




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